Hey people, I'm back!!!

Went for holiday in Genting Highlands and it was totally fun.

Woke up early in the morning @ 4.30 am. Left house at around 5.30am because meeting Ain at CCK control station @ 5.45am. But Ain was late and she reached cck around 6.15am. We quickly bought our breakfast in Mac in case we go hungry. Then we quickly took a train and took a cab from jurong east because we were so late. We were suppose to be at Boon Lay Shopping Complex there @ 7am. But we were at jurong around 6.45am so we wont have enough time to take bus from boon lay.

Luckily we reached exactly 7am. But then, some of Roshen's classmates have not reach yet so she said the latest is 7.30am. Wah liao.. if we know arh, we can still take train and alight at boon lay. Haiz...

I feel so pai seh lah.. coz this outing to Genting is actually Roshen's class. We are so called the extras... haha. But luckily we met Roshen's cousin and get to know her.

Ok dun hv to tell the whole story ok...blablablablah...

Oh ya.. just the first day in Genting already, me, kak baya & ain had a little adventure..Haha...
Let me tell u what happened. We were walking, window shopping after we gotten our rooms. That was at night after we freshen up. We walked and walked. We were actually with, Roshen, Mr Faris, Naz & Naqkiah.. but then i dun noe somehow we were separated. So it left me, ain & kak baya. Only the 3 of us. So, we just continue walking and doing our window shopping.

Then there was these group of malay guys, I dun noe if they are from singapore or malaysia. But kak baya said they are frm s'pore because she recognised one of them. So, when we walked passed them, they were like shouting "Kranji arh..sape Kranji? Eh Kranji, Kranji!!!! I was shocked ar..

But when I looked at them, I dont even recognise any of them. And how the hell they know Im from Kranji?? Im confused... So, we walked quickly and took escalator up. Then ain said that she saw them following us from behind. So, we walked quickly, took another escalator down from another side trying to lost track with them. Then we run to the lift and quickly ran back to our rooms. Omg!!! We were like so scared ar. Yah yah..all blamed me. Haha.. because of me, both of them also kena. Sorry lah... its nt like I know them.

Btw.. saw this cute chinese guy working in Padini @ Genting haha.. i dun noe how many times i've walked passed tat shop and saw him... he so so cute. :P

Me and kak baya called him No.2..because why? Because wen we walked passed the shop and we saw him. He was folding a shirt. Then kak baya said,"Tu!" pointing to him. And suddenly he turned and saw me. It happened that both of us turned at the same time. I was totally pai seh lah... haha.. kak baya lah ni haha... malu kite..

I quickly covered my face and walked passed quickly.

Anyway.. pixs haven gotten yet from any of them. So.. I'll post all the pix we had maybe around this week.. hehe

Ok toodles... yeay!!

Today going hospital gonna see my cute niece... cant wait to see how she looks like..haha.. Because my cousin's husband is chinese. Must be cute and pretty... hehe...

Ok lah.. adios and ba bye!!! Muaks :)

Today was deployed @ T2 Departure Hall. Don't even know people from 2nd shift. But make friend at last. And guess what!!! I was deployed together wit the guy I had a crush on. Haha.. He's malay but he looked like chinese. But unfortunately, when I was standing at the departure hall, he was doing the kerbside. And when I have to do the kerbside, he had to be in the departure hall. Haha.. Very difficult to see him. Wish to talk to him haiz.. but never mind at least get to see and it is the first deployed together with him...

Then when my shift ended, my mom,sis, aunty, little cousins and my grandmother surprised me by visiting me at the airport. It was just nice when I knocked out from work, they happened to arrived infront of me. I was so so surprised and happy to see them haha...

So bring them to tour around Terminal 3 with Ain tagging us along. Keep laughing here and there haha.. Then had my dinner at the food court in T3 but Ain had to go off coz her parents are going out so she's meeting them.

Feel fulled and so we headed home around 8 plus.. Oh ya! Jun Hao called me alien again.. didn't saw him. But he saw me called me alien haha... then he asked if that was my family and he was scared wahahaha... funny ar...

Tot just now go T3 can see Jun Hao then wanted to disturb him but unfortunately didn't see him. haha...anyway left one more day which is tuesday, my last day working in airport. Im gonna miss all my airport gangs during the time where we had alot of fun together after work..and spending time chatting and laughing during work. Gonna miss all that.

Oh ya!!! Guess what??!! Yesterday, when I was going to work .... in train, there were a group of foreign students boarded the train from Commonwealth if Im not wrong...

They are korean students haha.. and guess what?
One of the students looked like my favourite boyband-actor kind-of-look... my dearie oppa, si won haha..

He was so cute.. I don't know but he look exactly like that boyband-actor.... haha.. omg. Then ain said mayb that is him or his little brother haha...

But they alighted at city hall haiz sad lah...

"Oppa, saranghae-yo!!!!..."

Today boring coz was deployed alone @ T2 Landside, Skytrain E... nobody to talk to...

But lucky there was no weird2 questions by the passengers...haha.. if not I will stuck there don't know what to say.. because the information counter very far lah...

But niwaes... abg bear (bro bear) haha.. usually call him tat coz dun noe his name...
He came and accompany me... haha lucky got someone to talk to..
After that he went off.. suddenly he came back and guess what???

He bought for me chocolates @ The Cocoa Trees!!! Awww.. sho shweet... haha..

Ask him for what .. he said for my belated b'dae.. haha funny arh.. buat lawak.. aniwaes thnx big bro... :)



And today time rans very fast.. do u noe because of why...
Because Hakim was there wit me... as he was my IC so he can walk here and there.
And because i was deployed alone, he accompanied me at the booth..
Haha.. we joke and laugh until we didn't realize of the time....

haiz.. tomorrow work but hey cheer up, Liza...
Because you have 1 day left before u are free!!!! Yeay!!! haha.. ok toodles and ba bye

I found myself today
Oh, I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
Voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to stay
But you always used to say
But its written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that red light
And it's shinning on my destiny
Shinning all the time
And I won't be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark

I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
It doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself
And you'll find how
And it's only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself
And follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
Someone's watching over me

"This lyric is really meaningful to me. It's about how I going thru rite now. I'll try not to break down and I will never give up. Maybe God is testing me to see if I can endure living a life like this. Enduring my difficulties for 20 years. Smiling outside but crying inside. People never know with my fake smiles I've shown. Only to some of my closest friend knows about how i live with my fake smiles...

Thanks guys for being there for me especially when I really feel like Im alone in this world"

Let me tell you what I did on...

12 Mar, Wednesday

Came back to work again. It's like the very first I started work. Long time didn't work. So a little scared. Was happy bcoz got deployed @ T2 Departure Hall with Ain. We spent time talking and laughing killing our time when we get bored and there were no passengers to approach. I started this crazy idea of her becoming a song writer. Because we were so thirsty.. then came a song "Tempted to Touch" in her mind. And she made her own song with the song title called "Tempted to Drink". Haha... rite ain??

Then next, we decided to publish our own magazine called "Affection Magazine"...I know...

We are crazy rite? But at least we did something to kill our time rather than just stand there for our time and look at people walking here and there... But it was fun. The time ran very fast becos of our stupid ideas..

13 Mar, Thursday

And yap, working...

Sad was deployed alone and didn't know anybody there. But happy becos get to be stationed at my favourite booth...T3, Skytrain B. Haha... There I met a chinese girl but I dun noe her name. But we know each other becoz one of those days before I had my 2 weeks leave, I was deployed with her before during 2nd shift.. And yap.. supposely I start @ 6pm-12am. But unfortunately, there are no more transport for the West side people so we have to reschedule our shift to either 2nd or 4th shift... But I still love my 3rd shift becoz of all my 3rd shift gang... so decided to change from 5pm - 11pm, then need to catch up the last train.

Anyway back to my deployment @ T3.. when the 2nd shift people went back already, I was there alone waiting for the 3rd shift people to come in. Jacklyn was @ T3 same with me. Lucky I got friend who I know.. Then our IC was Jun Hao. Haha.. He's very funny ar..
He called me alien. Very bad seh this guy. But he's very friendly. The funny part was when he ran here and there from the pier to the skytrain to look at the FITV display.
Haha.. nice having him as my IC...

14 Mar, Friday
And yes, yesterday...
Was deployed @ T2 Departure Hall with Theresa. I've met this one malay guy, his name is Khairul. He was deployed outside @ T2 Departure Kerbside. Actually I dun even know him. Theresa ask if I want to help Khairul outside becoz he was the only one outside.. Because by rite, there should be at least 3 to 4 people outside but I dun noe what happened. So I went outside and started to talk to him. He's a very nice guy... We killed our time by chatting and laughing...
Then I switched with Theresa. I went back in to my booth while Theresa stand at the Kerbside.
Then 5 minutes later, saw Khairul came towards my booth and we start to chit chat again and laugh when weird people around us pass by. I was happy to get to know him. If not, I dun noe who I wan to spend my time with when I get bored.
Luckily he was at the booth with him becoz he help me with the passengers too. Because of him, I didn't get bored and also becoz of him... the time ran very fast.

Haha...thank him for passing my time chit chatting with him. But too bad, I had to go off at 10.45pm but he had to be there until 12am... After I gone, he had no one to talk to.. he said he was going to be bored becos I've to go. Haha.. but seriously gr8 to know him.

And oh ya... today is my interview at the Tourism School, that day during Career Fair they came down to our school. I hope I get to go through it. Wish me best of luck!! Aza Aza FIGHTING!!!!

Sometimes I feel like I'm a bird with broken wings
At times I dread my now and envy where I've been
But that's when quiet wisdom takes control
At least I've got a story no one's told

I finally learned to say
Whatever will be will be
I've learned to take
The good, the bad and breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
No one knows if shooting stars will land

These days it feels naive to put your faith in hope
To imitate a child, fall backwards on the snow
'Cause that's when fears will usually lead you blind
But now I try to under-analyse

Is the rope I walk wearing thin?
Is the life I love caving in?
Is the weight on your mind?

I'm getting bored with my life and I'm starting to hate myself
Why?
I don't know why.
Anyway, I'm graduating soon and I don't know what my future leads me to..
I just wish to turn myself back to a 6 years old girl where I don't have to think of anything else..
All I have to think is just play for all I care

I hate being myself..
I've to think of friends wonder if they still love me and care for me like I always do...
Think about boyfriend wonder if the person I like do like me too or having long-term relationship with a guy ...
Think about job wonder if I really get the job of my dream...
Think about money wonder if I hav enough for my daily expenses and for my further studies...
Think about family wonder if we are falling apart (hoping nt to happen again)...

& etc...

haish... why am I feeling this way?

I laugh,

I joke,

I smile,

But inside of me...

I feel restless and I don't wish to think of anything else anymore
I feel like half of my life is gone

And I don't know what is it

Don't ask me

I just need........
Someone to build my strength back
Someone who can stay up with me and accompany me whenever I need them
Someone to let me lean on their shoulder whenever I need it
Someone to share my sadness & happiness with me whenever I want to
Someone who stay up just to talk to me and fill up my lonely heart

I don't know what to say anymore, I just...need that someone!!!

I do hav friends all around me whoever or whenever I want to turn to
But to me, they are the people who always makes me laugh, joke around, go shopping together like spend time together..

But what I mean is...
I need someone who knows without me telling them...
I use to have that someone but somehow we lost contact
Whenever I need someone to talk to, to lean to, to cry with, to scream with...
I always turn to that special someone...but now whenever I try to turn to that person, I just realise that we already lost contact for 3 years plus
But I always feel that someone is still beside me and will always be.

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