Forever Diamond

내가 너무 아파~ I'm Really Hurt~

2010-04-24T01:05:00.002+08:00

Again & again, tears flow because of you ~ I'm really hurt
So why do I still think of you~
Once again, I smell your scent~ once again, I look at your photos
I thought of you again~

Very hurt, I'm really hurt~
I really didn't expect it to hurt so much
Really hurt, my heart hurts~
I really, really don't know why it would hurt this much from missing you

I can't get something that I want anymore ~ I'm really hurt
Why am I looking for you again?
Since the night you were gone, I've missed you very much
I still think of you~

Very hurt, I'm really hurt~
I really didn't expect it to hurt so much
Really hurt, my heart hurts~
I really, really don't know why it would hurt this much from missing you

Don't leave me again, please~
Don't hurt me, please stop this

Very hurt, I'm really hurt~
I really didn't expect it to hurt so much
Really hurt, my heart hurts~
I really, really don't know why it would hurt this much from missing you

Pain~ Pain~

Finding Faults

2010-04-09T23:46:00.003+08:00

Seriously Im unhappy about one particular thing... let me ask you people. If you say you like this or don't like that bt not in a bad way...its juz an opinion or suggestion bt at least you ar nt hurting anybody right .....bt then someone juz suddenly twisted your story & tell something tat what you say is totally bad in all people's eyes.. R u happy with tat? Seriously neither do I.

I mean I'm just saying my own suggestions & I'm nt sayin that this thing go to hell wat-so-eva... I'm juz prefering these things than the other ones... that's different rite anyway hw you also know if its two different thing or nt. Seriously tell me... Why??!!! Did I say bloody things to you that makes you want to backstab me? No wonder people say "Don't judge the book by its cover" I get it. Thank God that I realized it now. Seriously why... that's the only reason Im asking. I'm really really damn curious. What's wrong wif you?? Nobody talks bad about you, nobody hate you... bt what's wif that attitude to us wif all the backstabbin?? R u that unhappy abt your life? Den that's gt nothing to do wif us?

Anyway it's nt like Im saying those words that hurts you. I don't get it... And it's nt that the words Im saying that really kills people. Im really "????????????"... you know. Seriously, whatever you do, I'm seriously being patience nw & I'm closing one eyes coz I know I hurt nobody nor did I say that will hurt anybody... I KNOW THAT IM IN NO WRONG!!!! But still... i dun understand...

And now it's like im nobody to you anymore & it's your own decision oso... I oso did nt force you anything or mad at you or threaten you tellin you this & that... it's your own decision nw to be like this nw & i have to accept whateva nw. And whateva we do, that's our own prblm to take care of it and nt asking anybody to b involve in this situation.

Coz I feel like what you are doing nw, is like we are the ones who are the bad people bt actually... there is nothing we do that is totally wrong. If we are really wrong in the eyes of all people, pls state one by one what are the things...

Haiz.. I dun really get it.. What i like or don't like... or wanting to do this or that.. really gt nothing to do wif other people bt why is it like what i wan to do in life, makes someone hates me so much???

FT Island Fan Sign 2010

2010-01-30T00:32:00.012+08:00

AHHHHH!!!! Ok Im totally speechless coz of.... FT ISLANd!!! Dey were fabulous tonight & so handsome (I'm fainting..). Dey even looked betta den in photos. Me & Ain arrived Garden Plaza at around 2 plus and there were alot of fans alrdy lining up...Haiz!!! How i wish I hv d tixs!!! Ok these are the photos we took today...

While waiting for the time...still way too early...

How it looks like before it starts... so calm still abit empty here & there

People wif tix start lining up alrdy...

Den came our professional photographer hahah~ (like real)... my sister to help us take photos & vid of dem..

we r too far.. =(

Tonight was totally crazy wif FT Island's girl fans all around the Garden Plaza. Screaming here & there. We did too hahah~ It was fun. Chae-mi isso-yo!!! haahahaa

their butts are disturbing!! Get lost pple let me take a gud pixs of dem!!!

Sorry can't capture dem alot coz of all these people's BUTT!!!!! But anyway, my eyes are so damn LUCKY.... my eyes got to zoom in & out watching them so clear... I feel like fainting oh my god. They totally got a milky white skin & dey are so so so cute to the max!!!

But anyway, will upload d vid soon...

Bought their figure set & got a poster for FREE!!

the Five Treasure Island BOYZ...

Bad news sunday working & SHINEE will be @ LOT 1.... damn!!! HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT.....

And oh ya, wanna giv a baaaaddddddddddddd feedback about the emcee today... PLEASE ah~ you know alot of people from other races came down to see their boyband, still you want to speak chinese ah. Wat is this... tis is a totally BAD... do you think only chinese people can come to watch them izzit!!!!! Im starting to hate tis aft all my patience ever since i came down to watch my fav korean idols.

Not only tonight... even during Kang Ji-Hwan & Kim Ha-Neul came down to Heeren, the emcee also spoke in chinese.. This is totally UNFAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im starting to hate all these people... dun make me hate you more!!! Please do something about this!!!

Ok anyway... some photos wil upload soon coz in another cam.... ok bye an-nyeonghi chumu-seyo!!!!

Thanks you guys~

2010-01-05T23:37:00.005+08:00

안녕하세요 모두들...

It's bn a long time I didn't update my blog... but im updating now
Hmm~ 2010.... a new year starts & also my birthday celebration. I would like to thanks alot of pple who really celebrated my b'dae...

First was Agatha... thank u my fren... I didn't even planned of celebrating my b'dae tis year but u had planned my b'dae celebration 4 me... so a very big thank you to u... Even though we only spend about 2-3 hours together celebrating but im still happy coz I got to celebrate wif my besties...thats more meaningful for me...Im glad to have u as my fren til todae!!! =D

And sumthing surprising during the day of my b'dae..sad thing is tat during my b'dae I've to attend my training... bt anyway because I didn't expect anything much on this year of my birthday so I dun mind if I've to cum down to work or have a training...coz I still feel like my b'dae is like any other ordinary day to me nothing special...

But suddenly I feel special on d day of my b'dae...I celebrated my b'dae wif all my new colleagues who are going to be my new family...the USS crew... thanks to u guys Im happy to know & be in the family wif eu guys...thanks for the present & also the fun I had taking the first photo wif eu guys & it's on d day of my b'dae

And on d day of my b'dae a surprised thing happened aft I ended my training... a friend frm ITE suddenly appeared beside me... Guo Hao!!! I oso wanna thanked him for treating me (I was kidding actually for asking him to treat me, but he seriously said "ok"... God, I feel bad for him)...
Funny was tat I got alot of bodyguards surround me hahah~ actually dey are his frens~ hehehe

Anyway we really think hard what to have for dinner & we decided to eat at Thai Express @ Jurong Point...thanks for the treat again. One thing I feel bad for him coz he juz came back from work & carrying his uniform inside his bag...he muz be really tired...haiz~ But I had fun... thanks Guo Hao~~

Also my mother thank eu so much... i didn't know u bought me a b'dae cake & waited for me... if I noe I shldn't have gone for dinner... But no matter wat I wanna thanks to my mom so much..

Ma, thanks for bringing us up in all the difficult days u had gone through... U've bn like a fren to me instead of being a mother to me... And thanks for supporting all my dreams... U are the best mother I've ever had & I'll always be by your side no matter whatever happens... 옴마, 화이팅!!! 상랑해요..

And last thanks Ain for the present... u apologized for giving me unexpensive present. Hey, I never ask for any expensive present or any present frm eu... Do u noe wat?? I've already got alot of expensive gifts...and they are my precious friends... U guys are the most expensive gift I've ever had & that's more valuable that any gifts I get... And I hope that it will never never break... I really love you guys...thanks for being my friend

Thank you once again... =D

Now Im waiting for hubby's b'dae!!! My cutie oppa..haiz.. wanna pinch his cheek..aigo aigo~

Sick & Sick

2009-12-03T20:18:00.003+08:00

Has been one month plus working in NUH but I don't think wanna work there long....cozzzzz my dream is not reach yet. I'm gonna reach to my dream soon, I hope....

And now im sick, having flu right now and tmr I'm off. Gonna go out wif Ain coz bored @ home.
But anyways, my bad mood always enlightened me wif K-songs & K-dramas!!!! They are the best of all. And this latest song makes me smile whenever i feel sad...

Here's the youtube of the vid... love it so much. And OMG they are so cute!!!! Im falling in love wif dem.. ANDWAE!! HJ oppa ... Youngsaeng oppa!!!

And also SHINEE!!! My baby Onew....wif their new song now "Ring Ding Dong"

Life... haiz

2009-11-25T08:59:00.003+08:00

My life sucks... Im hating my life more and more... but no matter what I wanna get to my dream of becoming a translator hahahha...Argh!!! Ever since I kip having headache & my heart is not in a good condition. No mood to eat, no mood to do almost everything.

I don't wanna live here.. I wanna emigrate...to start a new life there...
There is a place I wanna be at but only people who are close to me really knows my dream that well.

But thanks to my close bestest friends...making me stay strong & carry on wif my life here first...
Guys, thank you & I always love you guys...Always the first in my heart...

5th Fantasy Meeting

2009-11-06T00:43:00.010+08:00

Location : Vivo City

Will upload photos of us in Changi Airport... alrite chingus(friends)..

I gotta go coz tmr working...will continue tmr...

And I can't wait to watch "MY GIRLFRIEND IS AN AGENT"!!

(God so jealous sis went to see dem live @ heeren..if nt coz of my stupid work i would have alrdy see dem!!!

--Toodles--

My Happy Day

2009-10-28T00:42:00.003+08:00

Though my busy working schedule or how tired I am, I will never eva missed going out wif my galfriends... That's one & only thing I'm happy about in my life & that is MY BESTIES!!!!
Coz of dem my tiredness, sadness, stress or anything got to do wif my emotions.... will always gone. They always make me laugh & smile ... so Im thankful for havin u guys around & its enuf for me to be happy.

And today, aft my tired day working.. I had to meet Nikki & Agatha.. but coz of dem I dun feel tired anymore... I feel more happy. My sis & I mit Nikki to find for our halloween costume. We found out that the masqueratee(i dun noe the spelling)shop closing at 7pm & we rushed to the shop. Lucky the shop haven closed coz dere were alot of people stil browsing in the shop. It was totally packed & we were like dun noe ware to look for the costume we want it.

I found the costume actually..it was a nurse wif its cap but wen I tried, it was totally tight to the max..& nikki wanted a witch-kind of costume but all was alrdy rented out if im nt wrong & instead we found here an air-stewardess costume but its tight too. But I prefer the masqueratee betta den scary halloween costume coz me & nikki LOVES the mask hahahaha. It was totally beautiful..

And today gave Nikki's b'dae present... I'm happy that she loves it (Sorry Nikki for giving ur present so late bt there wil b one more stil undone.)..

We had so much fun talking & sharing at the same time plus my sis joined us for our dates...that make it the 4 of us...Agatha & my sis like best friend alrdy hahha~ mit alrdy wah~~ non stop talking... And thanks Agatha for that "HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE" hahaha~

YEAH!!! It's my off day so I've to enjoy my off day before I've to come back on thursday & start my shift..haiz..& its in the afternoon. So wil be mitting my dearie Baya Onni...

Ok I guess I've to sleep now..my eyes are too tired alrdy.. ok toodles & photos wil upload probably by tmr...

So annyeong-higye-seyo!! 안녕히계세요!!

5th Fantasy

2009-10-21T19:35:00.002+08:00

Yes yes...we are the 5th fantasy tat was created by me of coz..thank you thank you... Anyway im happy to be choosen into this group tat consist of Baya onni, seha, ain, shuyi & of coz me... i hope in the upcoming events we will finish our recording of our songs and hoping for your support...

Hmm.. our theme or so-called colour that represents us.... if DBSK is red balloons, SUJU is pearl blue balloons, SS501 is green balloons and as for us...why not we represent the white balloons? we are the pure, innocents angels from 5th fantasy...

And i've written 9 songs for our group and i hope people will like it... and i dun noe if its meaningful or nt totally inspiration i apologise first..but anyway this for fun..

Due to my working schedule i will have difficulties meeting up wif my members but i hope i will neva miss anything fun tat wil be going on in our group...but upcoming schedule i think we shld be busy wif our photoshoot and recording so guys...get ready to get busy!!!

so for now bye-bye annyeong higye-seyo!! 안녕 히계세요!!!

The One I Love

2009-10-12T20:00:00.002+08:00

This is really meaningful and it is the same as what me & baya onni feel to our oppas~

The One I Love
I forget when it started
I don't know why I'm like this
A day seems so long and
Doesn't seem to have an end

How does another morning come?
I don't know
I can't do anything while not doing anything
I look at the slow time

Where are you? What are you doing?
Because I only think of one person
I shouldn't be doing this, I know
I know that I can't love you

My confession will make you go through more pain
I know, I know
Even though I knew (I knew)
I can't do anything (can't)

I can only think of you
If I close my two eyes or open them again
I can only think of one person
The memory I can't erase for one second (even today)
I just think of you
I can't do anything while not doing anything
I look at the slow time

Where are you? What are you doing?
Because I only think of one person
Because I think of that one person
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My QTjae...as for onni, be strong! Hwaiting..don't be sad. I know I feel it too~

Hari Raya Photos 2009

2009-09-22T12:53:00.035+08:00

FIRST DAY OF HARI RAYA (20 SEPT 09)

Me & my sis in our first day of Hari Raya before we headed to our Aunt's place @ Boon Lay...

The first thing caught us wen arrived at Aunt's place was tis cute little adorable niece of mine...Her name Putri Humairah.. So cute and pretty little princess just like her name.. So happy to see her tis bright now. No more tube sucking inside her nose. She also loves to pose. Hahahah~ when people ask to pose she wil start to pose and act cute.... aigoo~~

Haha we haven even start going house to house bt our cam alrdy has full of her cute photos...

From left is my grandfather, my cousin, my mom, myself & my uncle. Actually before that I wanted to take a photo wif my mom alone... but as my sis was counting to 3, dey quickly came into the picture and pose to take photo hahahhaha~ My family is always funny & noisy. When we met we will always go crazy ahaha~ That's how my family are. They are just think of having fun like me... Also wheneva we met , they love to tease me... *sniff sniff * hehhe~

Wif my cousin from left Fitri, Ramadan, Nurul and Myself

A happy family... My cousin wif her husband and cute daughter....

These are my family

Mother & daughter..pretty smile Putri, ware are you going carrying a bag? heheh~ CUTE!!!

SECOND DAY OF HARI RAYA (21 SEPT 09)

Well, that's all.. will upload more photos if I have.... waiting for the next hari raya outing wif ITE mates...Ju, Ain, Sab, Baya Onni...

Updates

2009-09-14T23:08:00.003+08:00

안녕!!! 하하하~ Been lazy lately to updates. But tonite got a lil time to update... Hmm~
Let me go refresh dem...Anyway fasting ending soon and sat nite can enjoy so many food yum yum!!!

09 Sept 2009
Went to NUH for medical check-up. Tot that it was only body check-up. I had to take vaccination and blood test. OUCH!!! Totally painful. Lucky was accompany by my sis if not i think I fainted in the doctor's room bcoz i was fasting. But lucky anyway I didn't faint. At first the doctor inject on my left hand, a pain tat was felt long time ago wen i had to take Hepatitis B during sec sch. Den straight to take blood test. Actually wanted to do it on my left arm bt couldn't see my vein so i've to take on the right arm instead. It was the most painful injection I've ever felt... But I could hold up. After the injection ended, I saw my blood was filled in 2 tubes. OMG! How much blood have I lose alrdy.

Wen I went out of the doc's room, my sis said tat I look like i was about to faint but actually was holding those tubes with my painful right arm. I felt my both hands was totally numb. Those people who was waiting to be called, was worried coz dey saw I gt 2 injection in one go. Haha~ haiz... I dun wish to think that back. The pain hmm...stil rmbr aft tat we took shuttle bus back & while in d bus was WOAH! As the bus drive over the hump, the pain in my right arm felt like my hand is burning...

But it was memorable coz my MONKEE went to Paris while I've to lose my blood.
Was worried went found out that he went ALONE... Plus he did lost in PARIS!!! But thank god to E.L.F of France for guiding him. Thanks for taking care of my MONKEE.. 오빠 사랑해요!! 은혁 오빠 화이팅!
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Happy Birthday to Nikki!!! Tonite Im trying to finish up her present. I hope you like coz I can't think of other things to buy.. If I can finish up Nikki's present den I can start doing Agatha's. Anyway Happy Advanced Birthday to Agatha. Will mit up on cuming Friday & the rest of our SC mates I guess...

Also while Im bored I wrote a song lyric for my MONKEE and JAE. I promise to show it to Baya onni. So, onni its done. I crack my brain for 3 days to write about how I feel...
(Ain, stil rmbr our group name? We can do MV alrdy hahah!!)

This song is for my JAE.. I'm using "Will you be my girlfriend?(내여자친구가 되어줄래?)" song by DBSK but not the lyrics. The lyrics I made it up myself so the title I change it to "Will you be my boyfriend?(내남자친구가 되어줄래?)..Anyway tis is only for fun ok...

WILL YOU BE MY BOYFRIEND?

Your sweet smile has caught me, I don't know what to do
My heart beats so fast that I can't even breathe
Your eyes that has caught me, I can't even resist
I'm about to faint that I hope you will catch me

My feelings for you, are so true
Wanna be close to you everyday
To be yours...

Over every night and over every day
Always dreaming of you with me
Am I the type of girl you ever dreamin of and
Wanna ask if you will be my boyfriend?
I love you so much so when you need me
I am only a heartbeat away

Bright sun shines in the morning, waking up feeling so fresh
Hoping you're here with me, everyday in my life
I wanna make your day, whenever you're feeling sad
So that your everyday life seems so beautiful

You are the only one, who can make my heart smile so brightly
You are the only one I want

Over every night and over every day
Always dreaming of you with me
Am I the type of girl you ever dreamin of and
Wanna ask if you will be my boyfriend?
I love you so much so when you need me
Yeah, I am only one heartbeat away

Right now, I feel like I'm in fantasy
He's like a prince who has caught my precious heart
Wanna say that I love you
No one else in my heart
I am the only your heartbeat

Every night and every day
You fill my empty heart with your love
Because of you, never regret not even a day
Not even let go of your hands

Over every night and over every day
Always dreaming of you with me
Am I the type of girl you ever dreamin of and
Wanna ask if you will be my boyfriend?
I love you so much so when you need me
I'm only one
I love you so much so when you need me
I'm only one heartbeat away....

Another one is for my MONKEE...I'm using "If (만약애) " song by Taeyeon. Only a lil is from the song the rest wrote it myself.

IF

If I were, to come close to you
Will you come close to me too
I'm just afraid, what you think of me
My heart is still unsure..

If I were, to go far from you
Will you go and leave me too
What should I do?
To forget about you
Still keep hanging in my mind

I know that i'm such a fool
Looking at you from a distant is all i can do
What should I do when my heart feel this way?
And everyday, I have to live my life with thoughts of you

I know that I'm such a fool
I can't even say I love you coz i'm too afraid
If I tell you, will you leave me one day?
Rather than feel those pain... I'll just keep it to myself

If I were, to say "I love you"
Will you say you love me too
Don't turn away, and walk out of me
I want you by my side

I know that i'm such a fool
Looking at you from a distant is all i can do
What should I do when my heart feel this way?
And everyday, I have to live my life with thoughts of you

I know that I'm such a fool
I can't even say I love you coz i'm too afraid
If I tell you, will you leave me one day?
Rather than feel those pain... I'll just keep it to myself

I know that I'm such a fool
I can't even say I love you coz i'm too afraid
If I tell you, will you leave me one day?
Rather than feel those pain... I'll just keep it to myself

Alrite tat's all for tonite. Gotta sleep early need to wake up for breakfast..안녕히계세요!!!
우리 재 & 먼키, 사랑해요!!

Cute 3 yrs old boy dancing to MIROTIC

2009-08-17T18:00:00.010+08:00

Dancing to MIROTIC...

Kawaii... isn't he cute??!! A 3 years old japanese boy is a fan of DBSK/THSK dancing to their songs MIROTIC haha~ I think if i hv a little son I will make him join dancing contest hehe~ He's totally a fan of them coz found alot of him dancing to DBSK's songs... even his shirt printed "TOHOSHINKI" haha~

I think he's a fan of Changmin... haha~ cute just like baby changminnie... Even he screams imitating changmin. "Changmin ah~ u got urself a cute little fanboy!! so Cute"

Yoochun calling Xiah "Come here, baby!"

This is cute!! Ain I think you wil die hearing Micky saying "Come here, baby". Haha~ How you wish he calls you that, huh? Xiah's cute too. No wonder the members love to bully him. When they bully him means they all love him. Xiah, the duckbutt!!! Aza aza hwaiting!!!

Oh ya the photos wen we met & surprise Ain @ her workplace... got some some photos, taken by my sis, the photographer...

toodles for now....안녕히계세요!!!

About DBSK Disband

2009-08-04T12:11:00.006+08:00

3rd Aug 2009 - Xiah, Jaejoong & Micky Official Statement "WE'RE SO TIRED EMOTIONALLY & PHYSICALLY", who filed for an Exclusive Contract Validity Suspension & Provisional Disposition Request against SM Entertainment on 31st July..

The 3 members revealed..
#1. For the past 5 yrs, the agency has bn controllin everything &
becus of everything dey hv gone thru, dey are so worn out mentally & physically

Xiah, Jaejoong & Micky debuted as DBSK in early mnths of 2004 & hv bn wif the order of SM, traveling bck & forth frm Korea, Japan & China. Dey hv bn completing their schedules sleeping only 3 -4 hrs every nite, every single day except for 1 week of the year. (OMG!! Im so worried wif their health..)

Becuz of tis, their health has bn affected greatly & the amount of stress & mental weariness dey received was huge. However, the more SM got DBSK involved in foreign activities, d more tiring & almost impossible d activities became. Dey finally began to feel like dey were no longer SM artistes who were strieving to reach their dreams bt mere tools for the agency to get money. Bt the 3 members stil wish to continue wif their activities as a singer according to their own visions.

#2. The exclusive contract tat was set for 13 years is in fact a "SLAVE CONTRACT"

Wen dey talk of d exclusive contract, dey refer to their contract tat last 13 years. However, wen dey add d years dey wil serve in military, d period wil extend at least 15 yrs which means tat dey wld hv to be celebrities under SM's rule for at least 10 more yrs b4 dey cld even consider retiring.

If dey were to cancel their contract b4 the 13 years were over, dey would hv to pay a fine tat was thrice d amnt of all the investments made & twice the amount of how much dey earned. As this amount wld add up to 10s of millions of $$ if dey were to cancel their contract. Dey had no other choice but to stay at SM under the same conditions dey are suffering becus of rite now.

#3. The members did nt receive as much as dey shld hv for their hard work

Juz becuz dey were tied to such contract, doesnt mean dey received fair treatmnt frm SM for their hard work. Dey received no money for d contract & wen the division of income is seen for their albums, their contract states tat each member cn receive 1000,000 won only if dey sell more den 500,000 copies of their album.(So all DBSK fans pls support dem by buying their albums. (Poor them..). If dey do nt reach 500,000 copies, dey do not receive a single $$ frm the income earned frm d album. [This clause was altered on 6 Feb 09] But even after alteration, the members only receive around 0.4 - 1% each frm the album sales. [What the...]

#4. Members hv tried numerous times to fix the contract, bt SM did nt listen to their pleas

The 3 members repeatedly ask for suspension of their exclusive contract so dey could follow their own visions of being a singer. Bt SM tried to move d spotlight 2wards the 3 member's cosmetic company, which has nothing to do wif tis trial.

So the 3 of them believed tat the least dey cld do was hv the 2 sides talk & reach a compromise tat both sides wld agree on & even offered to find a proper place to do so. Bt nt only SM ignore tis.. their past & current attitude made it almost impossible for there to b any talks wif SM. Dere was no hope for any talks to happen wif the agency & tat is why d 3 members decided to file this lawsuit.

#5. The investment in Cosmetic Company was sumthing dey did outside of their activities as a celebrity. It has nothing to do wif this lawsuit. The focus point is the unlawfulness of d exclusive contract.

SM revealed in their official statemnet tat the 3 members were filling this lawsuit becuz of problems tat arose becuz of the cosmetic company. However, the member's investment in d cosmetic company has nothing to do wif the lawsuit. SM is referrin to the Chinese branch of d company tat d 3 members invested in & tis was purely a personal investment tat has nothing to do wif their activities as celebrities. No one can say tat DBSk shld lose everythin dey hv worked so hard for until now juz becus of an investment of $1million in a cosmetic company tat is opening in China. (tat's ridiculous to even consider)

The core of wat the members see as a prblm is d unlawfulness of the exclusive contract. SM must stop trying to move the spotlight to the cosmetic company tat has nothing to do wif tis case.

#6. None of the members want to disband. All dey want is to escape frm the tirades of their contract.

Dey realized tat many fans feared tat a disbandmnt wld arise frm tis lawsuit. However, tis lawsuit shld never be linked to the possible disbandmnt of the grp. Only the 3 members r involved in tis process becuz of the difference in opinion of a method of approach btwn d members.

Bt dere are no strains watsoeva btwn the members & dey all wish to kip their promise to their fans & stay 2gather. If dey had even a small chance to fix the unlawful clauses in their contract & pursue their music careers in d way dey wanted, dey r willing to go thru wif these process wif only the firm belief tat all 5 of dem wld b able to stand on 1 stage 2gather infront of their fans even after tis ordeal.

#7. Dey take tis as a step to becum more mature

3 members are extremely sorry for frightenin d fans who care so much abt DBSk wif tis lawsuit bt dey believe tis is a step 2wards a bigger dream. Dey promise tat dey wil b able 2 cum out of tis situation as better people & a better grp if dey receive support frm their fans.
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SM stated on 1st Aug DBSK is a representative grp of nt only d members or SM, bt of Korea & Asia as a whole & dey must fulfill tat by continuing on wif their activities as a grp. It cld b seen clearly tat SM wld stop any notion of a disbandment.

Dey hv gone into findin a resolution for tis dispute wif Lee Soo Man who is returnin to Korea as soon as he heard d news. The key to fixing tis dispute is how much Lee Soo Man is willin to listen to the members & how much he is willin to concede to the member's demands.

He has bn noted to b very disappointed wif the fact tat many r seeing Micky, Jaejoong & Xiah's lawsuit against their agency as a means of breaking away frm d agency & disbanding.

Wen lawyer Lim Sang-Hyuk, who is representing DBSk in d lawsuit, releases their official statemnt on the 3rd, the exact details of the lawsuit. Bt as of now, d 3 members hv voiced their opinions tat dey truly want to stay 2gather as d 5 members of DBSK & hv neva tot of goin off as a grp of 3 as rumors hv implied.

Tis means tat if conflicts abt the cosmetic company & d exclusive contract r resolved thru a compromise, dere wil b no chance of d grp disbanding, even a small step wil suffice in tis.

The 3 members' willingness to participate in d SM Town Concert on d 16th & the numerous A-Nation performances shows tat dere are no conflicts btwn the members tat r big enuf to cause worries/doubts & hv significantly slowed dwn fears circulating abt a disbandmnt.

Efforsts of fans who wish to kip DBSK as it is cn be seen everyware. On Daum Agora, a petition tat was created to kip DBSK as it is has alrdy gained 13,000 signatures in 1 day. Dere r even talks of silent protests. However, some fans are sayin tat too much involvemnt frm d fans may infact hurt DBSK's lawsuit & hv warned other fans to jus wait & watch quietly (pls people calm down & let us jus pray 4 dem).

Dere is a growing concern tat too much attention on DBSK may continue to create rumors tat wil make d entire process more complicated den it shld b...

Rumors said tat dere is a deep rift btwn Micky, Jaejoong & Xiah's side .....wif U-Know & Max's side and tat d dispute btwn the 3 members & their agency ever since last April has becum so irreperable tat dere is no hope for a solution.
However, these rumors are only rumors & will only created more misunderstandings btwn members & the agency & wil only becom a hindrance & nt a helper..

"There's more news about them so do check out again....will post it tomorrow..
For all DBSK's fan pls calm down & let them solve tis issue without any misunderstandings & difficulties. Hope DBSK wil not be disband..."

What?!! DISBAND??!!!

2009-08-04T09:54:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was fun.. Met Baya onni also my sis tagged along coz she's bored. (Yea I understand. RP sucks.. but sorry to those who are in RP bt I cant stand wat my sis are going thru. Hell no Im going to RP! If i hv to go RP I prefer to commit suicide ahahah~ kidding. Bt anyway I wil say NO NO NO).
We went to SPCA @ Bartley to see cuttie cuttie cats.. mm..actually onni wants to adopt cats. The cats was so adorable and reminds me of my jae-cloud hahaa~ actually we as in me & onni decides hubbies' names. Since I use to like cloud (i think tat's the spelling) from Final Fantasy.. den jae's face like to fantasy-like. I heard people said tat wen dey saw him face-to-face, he was like anime..REALLY?!!! Chung-malyo?! ARGHH!!!!

Ok snap it out.... well, last last week if im nt wrong me & onni was in the train.. and onni was sitting at the priority seat..so i ask onni if she's pregnant & she's alrdy 3 months pregnant...haha
So it happen yesterday we disturbed Ain by going to her workplace to scared her hahaah~

Wen to Funan to surprise Ain & she was really really shocked haha~ Lucky the guy at the front is big enuf for onni to hide behind him at the counter ahhaa~
Omg! Tat was so fun! So we went lunch wif Ain @ PastaMania and spend our time sharing & joking. Ain!!! haha~ She said Onni pregnant later come out baby cat haha...coz we told her tat onni was gg to adop a kitten..

Hahaah~ cant imagine how Donghae wil react if he was to find out tat his baby is a kitten hahah~(inside joke). Well we took photos~ again me & Ain are the models but we add 1 more model bt she's a going-to-b-mother hahaha~ Photos wil b publish here i guess soon well if I'm nt lazy hehehe~

Sumthing upsets us four went me & baya onni saw sumthing on the newspaper while we were in the train.

"Top K-pop group 'MAY DISBAND' "!!! What is this? Why must it b dem???!!! They going to split up?!! NO WAy. I almost break down after reading them. SM is totally unfair. What's wif the termination of their contract?! Why Jae, why Micky, why Xiah??!!!

Let's just calm down and wait for any news about them. I hope they are nt breaking up. Please, Lee Soo Man do something... We dun want them to do solos... we want them as them..as TVXQ...as DBSK...as THSK...

I cant take this anymore ok im gg off nw..haiz..

"DBSK, pls b strong... we wil support you no matter wat.. you are still the best in our eyes and forever will b the best."

"Jae, love you the most. Why? Because ITS YOU! 아자 아자 화이팅!!! 재중 오빠 사랑해요..충말 사랑해요!! "

Photos to Mount Faber

2009-07-21T15:19:00.046+08:00

I snap when my sis was jumping.. am I gud? hehe~ so perfect and clear

Photoshoot using our baby D5000!!

2009-07-20T22:37:00.014+08:00

Hey people people especially my loved ones.... it been days I didn't update my blog

Alrite updates, updates... let me see..hmm...

Already 2nd in Korea class.. haha our teacher handsum, he's 22 but wat the heck my love only for Jae hahahaha~ alrite alrite snap out of it...

Plus bought Nikon D5000, the new digi cam. It was totally gud & totally clear. The pixs wil tell everything and you will know why... it was like totally photoshoot haha~ On the day we bought the cam at Causeway courts, we straight away went to Raffles to take photos coz that's the gud plc to take photos... anyway it was just a sudden. So me & Ain became the model for the day & the photography is my sister, Seha.

On Sat, 18 July went to Mount Faber wif my sis & Yan to take photos using our baby haha~ decide to call our baby (Me, my sis & Ain's baby). Actually I paid for that cam which cost $1299 but wil be ours. Ok, back to the story... Actually we decided to start trekking frm Marang Trail bt den daddy said to start frm the bridge at Alexandra Rd there, so mit Yan at 10am so we have time to trek slowly. Took bus 97 frm Jrng East and if im nt wrong we start our trek at abt 12, coz we went for breakfast first wen we reach IMM... start trekking to Henderson Waves den to Mount Faber and last Marang Trail... or either the other side Marang Trail den Mount Faber, can't remember... ok let the photos do the talking coz im too tired to type anyway...

Haha lazy me.. ok annyong!!! Oh ya... At last I managed to finish Kak Baya's birthday present haha~ thank god it was well worthy coz Onni luv it so much. I didn't noe that the present I made for her wil make her eyes fill with tears of happiness. I know Onni wil luv it so much coz I want to make Onni happy always... so wen u miss Oppa you can keep looking at it hehe~

Onni, Jae wanna wish you happy birthday!!! Hahaah~~

Anyway see you soon again Onni! Na Saranghaeyo!! Hwaiting!Muakx!

(언니, 사랑해요!! 화이팅!)

Photoshoot on the day we bought our baby, D5000

Actually there's more but lazy to upload more...

Ok toodles... wil upload pix for Mount Faber..tata~

When they let Joongie speaks

2009-07-06T11:10:00.007+08:00

Haiz.. nothing to talk about my life these few days. Only that I alrdy sign up for a course and I will b starting on this cuming friday. Looking forward to it. Hmm.. I missed my Joongie. What has he been up to? Is he fine?

Watching video of all his video history ... make me laugh & laugh watching it again & again. His adorable dorkiness, his pretty smile, his beautiful voice, his cute clumsiness, I'm always missing that. But this is the only video that always make me laugh & laugh coz he's so damn cuteness...

Can I b ur bed in ur room for just a day...no... forever?
Can I b ur diary in ur heart coz I want to put ur secrets in my heart
Can I b ur kitty for just a day?

out wit galfrenz

2009-06-20T20:59:00.002+08:00

During my leave day yesterday, went out wit Nikki and Agatha to Asian Civilisation Museum. Mit Nikki at around 4pm whereas mit Agatha around 4 plus coz her class ended about 3 plus. So we met at Raffles City and headed to ACM. It was fun, interesting and we took some pixs there. Luckily we safe our money coz the admission was free for only yesterday I think. Well at least we could save for our dinner.

Pixs nt out yet waiting for Nikki to upload so yar... But our tour is still incomplete so decided to visit The Peranakans Museum mayb next week. And Agatha was thinking of going for cycling. Dun worry we can plan alot of stuff for us to do together as long we always kip in touch.

And tomorrow, my family will b going to Batam. Need to slip early today if nt can't wake up tomorrow to get ready. Aunt will pick us up abt 6.30am for breakfast so going to enjoy myself tomorrow and SHOPPING!!!!!

Been Busy

2009-06-06T15:41:00.006+08:00

Hey peoplez... sorry it's been like years and years I didn't update my blogs and it feels haunted hehe...tat's wat fren told me. Sorry lor.. Well, coz too busy working but during my off days too lazy to on my labtop. Hmm..ok let me see what i can refresh...

Oh yap... Happy Birthday Hyun Joong oppa!! May all your wishes cum true.Not celebrating wif Hwangbo onni hehe? But Baya onni said oppa's bdae on 9 june... hehe i guess either one of us is wrong well nvm if its my mistake den take it as if it's oppa's advance bdae wish..

And another thing i cld remember just the other day, during my off day if im nt wrong on monday,1june... me and Baya onni went to survey for our language course. Went down to Bishan to look for Spring Language school. hahaha~ didnt we realise when we try to ask people in the community centre the location of the school..it happen to b just infront of the community centre. We felt so stupid but we laughed as we looked at each other.

Guess wat?? The course fee is totally cheap. 250 bucks for the whole package. Registration fee, course fee plus the materials. But if we want to take the examination we need to add 40 bucks if im nt wrong. Bt it's totally worthy. But problem came... the class starts on 8 june this coming monday... unfortunately im working so we couldnt enrol for tis month class. Oh forgot to say, im resigning frm my workplace coz i wan to enrol for poly this july opening application. I hope i got in. So i tender 1 month notice and I've already planned. While waiting for application of my poly, i will take up korea class. So me and Baya onni decided to take the class on July after my 1 month resignation ends... We are just waiting for the person to call us when is the class start on July coz we try to take on Monday as Baya onni only off on Monday...

So if we alrdy done enrolment for the class, we will be learning for 2 1/2 months...so after that we shld already be fluent in our Korea language hehe~ We totally can't wait for the class!!!!
Our dreams is to stay in Korea.. we wanna go Busan...Incheon...see oppa's concert..... I wanna wanna go Jeju Island!
Ok back to reality...

After tat we went down to Lot 1 to look for Donghae oppa's name tag coz well Baya onni's hubby....haha~ saw my hubby's name tag so getting one for Baya onni. Then we headed to Jurong Point hoping to find our hubby's stuff... coz onni finding bracelet just like Donghae oppa wearing. But unfortunately it doesn't look similar.

I had fun going out with Baya onni coz we do had alot of common things. Like our hubbies hahah~ We talked and talked..laughed and laughed, sharing Korean words we know til we didn't realised the time... I hope we could hang out together again,onni. We only manage to take pix at Jurong East station coz why... we were too busy talking abt our hubbies until I didn't realise I brought my cam hahah~ but anyways, we promise to meet up again some time sooner and take alot of photos but this time we wanna bring AIN!!! We missed Mrs Yoochun... Yoochuna~ Mrs Donghae and Mrs Jaejoong missed you. We wanna share our hubbies stories with you ... Im sure it will be more noisier and fun....

Me & Baya onni... Onnie saranghaeyo!![언니 사랑해요]hehe~

Oh yap.. monday on 8 june til 25 june i will no longer b working wit my teammates, California coz im undergoing my resignation so i will b doing admin stuff instead of queues... So i will start at 8am to 6pm and off on Sat & Sun till my las dae...

Ok den toodles~ Im out of here...안녕!!

Had fun

2009-02-06T23:14:00.002+08:00

Thank god that Im off today and tomorrow... went to Jurong Point, the new shopping centre wif Agatha. I feel like @ laz im free frm stressss working.... Do shopping and window shopping at the same time and and i bought shoes and cardigan. It was like cheap..haha DISCOUNT..

Actually planned of going to JP the other dae coz my aunt told me to go and check it out there but too lazy to go coz tired so yah went todae. We walked frm 2.30pm til 8.00pm. Actually i planned to go off after we went into the The Skin Food @ around 5pm. But becuz at the same time Agatha apply for the part-time job there so might as well she go for the interview... so we have to walk around that JP til 7pm coz we have to wait til the boss arrived...

I can say, the new shopping centre is nice and biggg... there were one straight line of food place at level 1 if im nt wrong... its totally easy for people to find food around there...
And went to this shop like selling nice diaries,gifts and stuff like tat and all i saw was alot of korean words haha~ i mean i cn read well only slowly if u giv me one paragraph but i dun noe wat is it haha~

Actually while waiting for the time for Agatha to go for the interview, we tot of going to watch movies "Brides War" but too bad coz it wil end around 8 like that and the interview was like @ 7pm

Anyways, 생일 축하합니다 유노 (Happy Birthday, U-Know!!!) Be handsome all the time haha~ And Ain seriously u can't have him. Pls take ur one and only Micky away and play far far haha~
Omg!! Ya i've to say tis alot of times, I think Agatha knows how many times i've say it todae haha..Ain!! Those photos is nice but it doesnt look real haha but anyways Ain~Chunnie..Liz~Joongie haha happily married haha

But that first photo...ney i dun want it. Its too pain to accept it.. Ok anyways that's all. My fingers are too tired from typing and thanks Agatha, had fun todae and i hope we could do this more often and like i say wif my favourite sentence "THE MORE THE MERRIER''. Oh and forgotten to say tis...

TO MISS ORGANISER:

PLEASE CONFIRM OUR GATHERING NEXT WEEK COZ IM TOO MISSING U GUYS...ITS NOT SO EASY FOR ME TO GET WEEKENDS OFF SO I HOPE WE ARE ALL FREE TO MIT UP REAL SOON...

ok nitez..

happy 23rd birthday to JAEJOONG!!

2009-01-31T15:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BELATED 23RD BIRTHDAY TO JAEJOONG!!

Happy Birthday to my jaejoong!! Turning 23 years old this year. May all your wishes will cum true OPPA and always be cute, funny, handsume like a prince and dun stop being happy always coz we love ur smiles everytime we watch eu!!! Saranghaeyo...

Its been a while since i didnt update my blog. As usual too busy working. Stressssss all day working. During Jae's birthday on the 26Jan, went to East Coast overnight aft ended work...Had so much fun there cycling and playing games. Our family always plan for overnight every Chinese New Year. We've been doing these for the past i dun noe how many years...

And today thank god, I'm off. Resting @ home but boring. Wanna go out window shopping but the problem is WIF WHO...so boring if window shopping alone. But the best part is that i can't wait for my gathering wif my gals on the 15 Feb...We are going to meet up soon!! Can't wait coz i miss eu guys like crazy and and... I got alot of things to talk about.

And plus last 2 days, was having like field briefing, happened that i saw him... he was wearing RED jacket...that's my favourite colour haha...My colleague was so bad tat he purposely push me away so tat i can fall rite into him coz he was walking @ the back....I was like so shy and blushing that my cheeks was so hot. And my colleague was like "Ooo....she's shy already" haha~ I totally can't look him in the eyes. I dun noe why but yeah...haha~ it's been long time since i feel tis way after i tried to forget about that someone....and i guess my heart start to open up back mayb slowly to someone else...

Oh ya, sorry totally no photos of us overnite @ East Coast coz having too much fun enjoying ourselves. Haha~ Anyway Ain updates coming up...Yunho's birthday cuming on the 6Feb...

Rain - Rainism & Wonder Girls - Nobody

2009-01-19T10:00:00.003+08:00

Rain - Rainism

Luv this song...

Wonder Girls - Nobody

Belated Surprise B'dae

2009-01-06T09:27:00.006+08:00

Yesterday I knew that I couldn't concentrate @ work. While doing my work, suddenly it flash bck abt wat happened on that nite. I cant seem to forget abt it. Its so scary. I try nt to think abt it but I dun noe it just came bck again. The memory suddenly flashed bck when my sis was hit by that damn car.

But I almost forgot abt that for a moment wen my colleagues surprise me wif a b'dae cake. I didnt expected tat dey wil celebrate becoz my b'dae was d dae b4 yesterday... It was totally a surprise. I really tot tat my manager called me becoz I've gotten alot of errors and I tot tat she noticed that I couldn't concentrate @ all. But it was all a plot. They were planning for a surprise for me....Anyway thnks guys. It was totally sweet....
Cake from my colleagues..

Thanks for the cute bear & beautiful earrings...It is totally beautiful. Really appreciate it.

And tis is d b'dae cake my mom bought it yesterday. I feel sad...coz she waited for me to reach home to eat tis b'dae cake wif me & sis. But unfortunately...I reached home late & she was alrdy sleeping... But no matter wat u do... I love you, mom. You've done so much for me & my sis. Bringing us up together it's totally nt easy. All the good times & bad times we've been thru, I'll never forget that....

Its My Birthday

2009-01-05T09:11:00.031+08:00

Alrite before i go to work I've to update tis coz if todae end work too tired alrdy to update...And Happy Birthday To Me & My Sis!!! Can't believe Im 21 already...

Yesterday celebrated our b'dae wif our family members @ Mr Teh Tarik at Boon Lay. It was nice...Well this year don't feel like celebrating it big...Sorry didnt get to snap the food coz too hungry alrdy haha...Only taken after we finish eating hehe..ooopsy...It was nice and had fun enjoying my lunch wif my big family.

Thanks for all the presents people..My loving grandmother gave me a beatiful diamond dangling earrings and guess wat it was made frm KOREA..haha.. I guess my grandmother approved me wanting to marry a KOREAN guy haha...Just kidding..It's easy thou...But funny..yesterday show JAEJOONG's photo to my grandparents and they say he's handsome haha... I told them he's my hubby and they laugh and said can bring him back...haha cute..

Ok that's all i can say and like i said let the photos do all the talking...My cute sis haha..

After had our lunch, we stayed until 6pm then my mom, aunt & uncle decided to see & survey the villa @ D'Kranji Resort. So I tagged along but my dad, sis & bro not following coz only 4 of us fit inside my uncle's car. So only the 4 of us went to check it out..

After surveying the villa well we kind of dun like it... But the feeling was like we were in Malaysia. Those who love village kind of living, tis really suits perfectly.But it's nice thou.Very peaceful...But if $$$...Hmm...

Ok, nw for presents..Can't expect received presents til todae haha...I mean like this kind of age..

Earrings given by grandmother, pillow by my aunt...

By my lovely brother..cute rite
Another present frm my bro to me & my sis...

Isn't tat nice...

All rite tats all..oh ya...something shocked happened to me,my sis & bro yesterday @ nite

We were going to LOT 1 and we were crossing the traffice. Obviously its green light.. but while we were walking, I dun noe there's a car came frm the rite side, suddenly speed and hit my sis...Supposely it hit my bro but he managed to run away and instead hit my sis... And for me, i was just beside my sis couldn't say anything coz i was too shocked. I think if the car didn't stop immediately me & my sis will be hit badly...I mean hello...it's green light can't u see?

The taxi driver saw what happened and quickly shouted at the driver... I think the driver is blind. He wore 4 eyes alrdy still so blind and he dun feel sorry for wat he did. When he saw it's stil a green like, he quickly waved to say sorry-kind-of-thing and speed of. What sia!!

He didn't even look and us..Bloody hell....

How i wish i can turn back time and snap his car plate. Idiot!!! All i noe is that he's in a mid 40's like of look, chinese but the rest of the details of what colour is the car and brand not sure. Coz the three of us were totally in shocked wen it totally happened infrnt of us and in a split sec.

Luckily my sis stopped the car if not i think me & my sis will be... I dun noe...And its our birthday some more... Its totally unexpected happened during our birthday at night...

But we thanked God that nothing happened to us... But if seriously if my sis felt any internal injuries, I will never gonna let that damn guy run away... He totally have to repay tis...

And wen we reached home, my bro stomach started to get hurt, mayb frm the shocked plus he's having fever...And for me, I couldn't sleep at all coz it keeps playing inside my mind and its' scarring me...Coz at that time i tot i was gonna die wen the car speed rite infrnt of us wen he's turning on our rite...

I hope tis incident will fade away in my mind as soon as possible. Im totally in a shocked state rite now and i dun noe if i can concentrate at work todae...

Ok, I've to get ready for work... I guess i'll update some other times...bye

Advance Birthday Celebration

2009-01-03T15:26:00.021+08:00

Yesterday was a nice surprise guys thanks alot... And thanks Agatha for tat BLUETOOTH haha~

God Im so gg to turn 21 tmr... So fast we are getting old haha~ But if I stil want to be 20 forever who said i've to buy kids' meal...any how only haha

Bt it was great and I didnt expect a totally big surprise...

Went down to Marina Sq and we had our dinner at Pizza Hut.Aft we finished eating, suddenly got music came out. I was like shocked coz I tot gt fire alarm haha~ suddenly a cake came in as the birthday song was played... I was totally shocked.

You guys have been surprising me wif all these every year of my birthday. When I made a wish I totally thank god for letting me knowing you guys & I hope we stay like this forever...You guys are my besties for life and there's no other people can replace you guys in my heart.

Ok dun talk more haha~ now let the photos do all the talking~ anyway even thou my birthday is tomorrow bt the surprise given to me yesterday was the best...

Alot of them can't make it yesterday but its ok anyway its ok...coz its friday so people r stil busy.

Actually I only tot of gg out coz its been so long we didn't go out and hv fun like this...Ever since all of us have alot of things to do we hardly see or talk to each other..But i totally didn't expect a surprise advance b'dae from u guys..

And Ain, thnks for the butterfly earrings. Haha~ it is cute. You know i like butterfly. Thnks and its ok if u can't join us yesterday. But hey, at least we mit up yesterday for awhile...I totally miss eu.

And I wanna say that i luv you guys alot~

And Im forward to my birthday gathering wif my family tomorrow on the day of my birthday...haha... wil update more...

Bye!

Nobody - Wonder Girls [english version]

2008-12-24T09:47:00.002+08:00

English version - Nobody by Wonder Girls

You know i still LOVE you baby,
And it will never change

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Why are you trying to push me away?
You know that I hate it, you ignore what im saying
Why are you trying to send me to other?
You push me away like a little each day why?

Saying that this is for my own good
Saying that you are just not worth it
Please, stop it right now coz' you know me enough that
I will come back to you no matter what!

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

All the pushing won't change my feelings
I am happy to have you,more than willing to please you
I'm begging you pleasedon't walk away from meCoz'
I can't be happy away from your side

Saying that this is for my own good
Saying that you are just not worth it
Please, stop it right now coz' you know me enough that
I will come back to you no matter what!

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

I don't want nobody, body
I don't want nobody, body
Life is unperfect without seeing you
I cannot have anyone but you...

I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want nobody, nobody but you
I want no one else but you
Can't have anyone but you
I want nobody nobody nobody nobody

Rap:
BacK to the days when we were so young and wild and free
Everything we had back then was like a dream
If only i could turn back time
Why do you keep on pushing me away?why do you push me away?
I don't want nobody, nobody,nobody. nobody but you

Work Story

2008-12-23T08:52:00.003+08:00

Hey I'm here..before I go to work betta update my blog coz if i reach home alrdy no time...waiting for my off day wil be waayy....too long..

Ok..yesterday was totally stress. I got alot of errors yesterday & i done 2 alrdy out of i dun noe how many errors i had...Seriously all the errors i got are all the minor things...
Anyway yesterday, we were so crazy. Too stress tats why... Hahaha... Keep on laughing & laughing like crazy people... I was like asking coz wanna get it straight abt d question my colleague said....

Colleague A : If I don't do this, will I get errors?
Colleague B : Nooo.... (think & think)...error...
Me : No error (Totally not an error) or... Noooo..... (den abt a sec) error (Nooo... its an error)

Then dey laugh... hahaha... I was like "What... Correct wat. Just wanna know if u say no error or no... its an error" Hahaha... But we had so much fun yesterday.

And I don't wat day was yesterday tat when I went down to buy my dinner, everybody was like looking for me everywhere. Weird haha...
Alrite...tats all i can share abt yesterday. Wil update more...

Oh yah.. saw tis cute guy....but he's a chinese guy... our eyes like met for abt a minute. Not long but i hope its long haha...

Now, dun wanna think abt stress... only cn do it at work bt i hope today will not be stresssss....

Let's watch my cute hubby, JAEJOONG singing their first single, HUG....spoily...
He's gud at singing spoily... Notty boy & loving him forever....
Poor Changmin got choked bcuz of his hyungs...And Micky will his fav "AH~"
Ain do look aft ur hubby properly hahaha...

Changmin singing shaking voice....CUTE & SEXY!!

And cute, adorable BABY WONDER GIRLS singing Nobody by Wonder Girls
Bt gt one boy haha... CUTE!!!

HATE MY LIFE

2008-12-19T09:50:00.003+08:00

Wah its been how many weeks alrdy. No time to update my blog cz been busy working. Even my off days i was toooo tired to do anything. Just imagine.. U start work at 12.30nn and u end at 10.30pm everyday. Isn't tat crazy. Yah, i know way too too tiring. I've been enduring my tiredness ever since i started work.

Like yesterday, was totally tired. Coz been working on tues so til today laz dae. Yeah! Tmr off day til sun only 2 days off. Damn! And I've to go & get a christmas present for my colleagues. Coz we are having this exchnging of presents on christmas day and comes wif a christmas dinner. Wow! But looking for present is difficult.

GOD!!! Somebody help me. Seriously im way too tired to think alrdy. My brain alrdy jammed stressing out working. Everyday i get difficult PNR. Solving them is one thing. Finding the fare the trvl agnt quoted is another thing. SO MANY TO DO... God, I dun even noe how am i gonna survive forever like this.

Graduation is by the end of tis FEB...so LONGGGGG!!!! Another 2 more mnths to endure. I hope I cn endure til I get the cert. But having my colleagues, I never thnk of giving up so easily.

Now everyday come to work 15mins early, flex at 12.15 so tat i cn end @ 10.15...And reach home abt 12am... Shower, have my supper its alrdy abt 1230-1245 like tat... then next day wake up shower, eat breakfast and get ready to go to work. My everyday routine like tis. I feel like I've gt no life at all...

So many things to do so little time...Can anybody pls entertain me... I need to freshen up...

2008-12-09T20:51:00.002+08:00

Todae had fun wif u gals... I hope we do this often. Times totally fly pass so fast.
Even its a lil sudden becuz we didn't even plan ware to go but ware ever we go was the best day of my life.

DBSK Hahaha Songs (funny & cute)

Cute Duet - Yunho & Micky

Believe It Or Not! DBSK Comedy Show (CUTE CHANGMIN!!Too bad Jaejoong is nt dere)

OFF DAY..

2008-12-03T19:32:00.002+08:00

Thank god todae and tomorrow are my off day. Yesterday after work we went for supper. It was a good meal though. Stayed up til 12.30 and reached home around 1 plus. So totally tired. After eating feel so sleepy. But the rest of them wanted to play games after supper...

Ok now i wanna watch my taiwan drama "Corner with love". Today is the best part!! Thank god i can watch it today and tmr... haiz...fri have to come back to work. Just imagine 10 hours working. Im dying from this.

Anyway, thnks Nikki for that dinner on tat friday, well even though something happen tat night. I dun noe if it will work again if we go out for dinner again. It was totally a shocked for me wen only plan for the 3 of us for dinner but instead people who i didn't noe came along too and I dun noe what's the reason behind tis...

life is hard...

2008-11-03T20:46:00.005+08:00

God.. I hate my life rite now. The 9th week of training & im starting to get more & more stress out. I don't even noe if I really wanna continue this. At this stage rite now, Im telling you Im getting brain damage. Just feel like screaming the top of my lungs...

Been trying very hard to learn & understand the topic today.. "Flight Schedule Change". Oh God... can't even master my domestic & international PNR, want to understand flight schedule change? Ha... I dun noe wat to say.

I mean the benefits is good. But if it is seriously not my cup of tea, den I can't just be staying becuz of d benefits, rite?? I think i'll suffer tat way. Plus i can't MULTI-TASK.... seriously.

And now I misses all my galfrens. Makes me wanna cry missing dem...wen to mit u guys? Wen is our gathering? And ain, Dec baru nk jmp? Lame lah... I wanna share stories abt our hubbies haha.. About ur Micky & my Jaejoong...

All about Mirotic

2008-10-28T21:28:00.009+08:00

All About MIROTIC...

4th Album Mirotic

JOONGIE!! Still cute no matter wat...

Mirotic ~ DBSK 4th Album

2008-10-21T21:54:00.003+08:00

MIROTIC ~ DBSK

시작은 달콤하게, 평범하게 나에게 끌려
언제나 그랬듯이 먼저 말을 걸어와
모든 가능성, 열어둬 Oh-

사랑은 뭐다? 뭐다! 이미 수식어 Red ocean
난, breakin` my rules again 알잖아 지루한걸?
조금 다쳐도 넌, 괜찮아 Oh-

넌 나를 원해 넌 내게 빠져 넌 내게 미쳐
헤어 날수 없어 I got you- Under my skin
넌 나를 원해 넌 내게 빠져 넌 내게 미쳐
넌 나의 노예 I got you- Under my skin

네 머릿속을 파고드는 날카로운 눈빛
나 아니고선, 움직이지도 않는 Chrome heart
네가 선택한 길인걸 Oh-

혈관을 타고 흐르는 수억 개의 나의 Crystal
마침내 시작된 변신의 끝은 나
이것도 사랑은 아닐까? Oh-

넌 나를 원해 넌 내게 빠져 넌 내게 미쳐
헤어 날수 없어 I got you- Under my skin
넌 나를 원해 넌 내게 빠져 넌 내게 미쳐
넌 나의 노예 I got you- Under my skin

한 번의 키스와 함께-날이 선듯한-강한 이끌림
두 번의 키스, 뜨겁게 터져버릴 것 같은 네 심장을
Yeah~ 너를 가졌어 You know you got it!
Yeah~ Come on! Come on! I got you- Under my skin

네 꿈속에 난 널 지배하는 마법사 내 주문에
넌 다시 그려지고 있어 I got you-Under my skin

My devils ride, 더는 숨을 곳이 없잖아 그렇다면
이젠 즐겨 보는게 어떨까 I got you-Under my skin

넌 나를 원해 넌 내게 빠져 넌 내게 미쳐
헤어 날수 없어 I got you- Under my skin
넌 나를 원해 넌 내게 빠져 넌 내게 미쳐
넌 나의 노예I got you- Under my skin

TRANSLATION

From the start, you were sweet and simply attracted to me
You’d stay always like that, you said when you first walked up to me
All the possibilities opened up Oh~

What is love? What! right now it is Red Ocean
I’m breaking my rules again. You know it’s getting boring?
You do get hurt a little bit, it’s all right Oh~

You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me
You can’t break out, I got you~ Under my skin
You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me
You are my slave, I got you~ Under my skin

It nests in your head, the sharp stare
It’s not me, my unmoving Chrome heart
This is your choice Oh~

Flowing through your veins running through you are millions of my Crystal
Finally, the end of the transformation (t/n: the end of my transformation)
This must be love? Oh~

You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me
You can’t break out, I got you~ Under my skin
You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me
You are my slave, I got you~ Under my skin

With a single kiss~ the day revitalizing~ a powerful pull
The second kiss, it sent a blow to your heart and it feels hot
Yeah~ I have you! You know you got it!
Yeah~ Come on! Come on! I got you- Under my skin

In your dreams i order you under my magic spell
You want to do it again, I got you~Under my skin

My devils ride, you now don’t have a place to breathe
Let’s have fun now that i have you~ Under my skin

You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me
You can’t break out, I got you~ Under my skin
You want me, you’ve fallen for me, you’re crazy for me
You are my slave, I got you~ Under my skin

photos of Aqil's b'dae

2008-10-20T19:13:00.010+08:00

Ok here are d photos taken on Sat during my lil cute nephew's birthday party...

I will say no more let d pixs do the talking. Alrite & byebye...

My sis, cuz & ME!!

Here is d birthday boy...

Birthday boy wit mummy & daddy

tat is so sooo...cute!!

Me & mummy eating mussels wit my bro too but too bad his face was cut.. mmm..yummy

Anyway.... my cute Joongie in MIROTIC MV...

Ain!! If dey cumin to perform in KL wanna go wanna go??!!

Ain wats wrng with ur Yoochun's hair... he's becuming notty boy haha~

Dey becumin more musculine! Haha~

HELP

2008-10-16T21:10:00.002+08:00

Oh god.. I tot I'll be ok today. But I think todae is worst. Im still sick. Lucky I didn't faint coz was walking home and i feel so giddy.

I miss my galfrienzzzzzzz......... Hope to turn back time. And wen are we having gatherings again. Miss you guys, all our stupid jokes. That memories will never ever fade in my life.

Im back...

2008-10-15T10:13:00.020+08:00

Sorry guys for my MIA haha... Been busy wit my training these days. Well, its been 1 & a haf mths i've been enduring tis stress job. Im happy tat at least i have a lot of knowledge in tis training even though i find tis job is not my cup of tea. But if i leave im still glad I've gain some experience in tis field.

Well here's are photos from d 1st dae of hari raya...

2nd day of raya...

Hari Raya Open house @ kak zainab... on 12 Oct 08....

Ok that's all for 2day. Anyway Im having a bad cough, flu & fever. Worst rite? I noe...

ok toodles~~

Oh by the way..DBSK 4th album..MIROTIC is totally nice & my joongie is so CUTEEEE~

Stresssssss

2008-09-24T20:58:00.007+08:00

Oh god! Totally stress with the training. I almost tot of giving up. But I still must try no matter what.

And these are the pictures of my NW mates... we had our colour codes every friday...

Colour code : Green...

Colour code : Blue...

2008-09-15T20:18:00.003+08:00

God, so tiring. One week has passed. Can't it be any faster??? I think I'm gonna be sick like this. I don't noe if I can cope it.

Anyway, today went home saw kak baya in train.. Miss her so much. Co-incidentally we met in train. Hope we can meet again some day wen we are free.

Ok~ today nothing much. BORINGGG~ How I wish my life to be any more fun???!!!!!

4th day of training

2008-09-11T20:30:00.002+08:00

Today is the 4th day of training. Tmr will havin my exam on reservation. I hope i can pass. It must be 80%. Starting training on mon til today, was totally tiring. Coz i've to wake up early in the mrng @4.30am to eat. Want to sleep not enuf time... and I've to be out of my hse @ 5.30am. Must reach payah lebar before 7.58am.

I hope I manage to cope til my 6 months probation. Den after tat, got my pass den can go overseas alrdy! Can't wait. Seoul, my favorite country. I'm coming soon. I hope...Coz northwest airline going Narita, Tokyo so it's near!!!

Ok, tmr havin exam well not really big exam. It is kind like assessment but will b graded. Scary for tmr but never mind. Patience! Tmr aft 5pm den can sleep late haha~ Coz Sat no training. Only Mon-Fri.

Ok toodles... I dun noe if i can revise. But if never revise oso nevermind as lng I noe d codes den I safe. Okie tata~

Was selected @ Northwest Airline

2008-09-05T21:57:00.005+08:00

I've made it. Went for briefing today @ 3pm. Met 2 friends. Well we can click. We talked like we know each other very well.

Well, will be starting my job training on Mon. Haiz~ have to b there by 8am. I hope I'm enjoying tis work.

Ok toodles~

=> * I'm missing someone so much rite now *<= & always lup dear *Joongie* hehe~ (only someone noes wat i meant, rite Mrs. Yoochun?)

((& Mrs. Joongie misses Mrs. Yoochun))

The way you are

2008-09-03T10:34:00.003+08:00

I believed tat it was hard to really really fall in love
But that was what I tot b4 I saw u
I didn't noe that tots cld be changed so easily
I was foolishly by myself

But it's not going to happen by trying
Hope to naturally go up to u
Will u make your honest love grow?
That luv was only in my illusions of my tears

Ur tots, ur interests...
Wanna noe everything
About the way u are

Everyone started to talk about loneliness
Dey talked about ways to forget abt d loneliness
But I dun care about tat
Only care about my happiness & what I've achieved...

Interviewssssss........

2008-09-02T06:24:00.006+08:00

Hey, been busy lately going to interviews and sending grandparents for check-up this and that..

Pass my test in my 1st interview a kind like how fast i type all the informations & well a lil bit of MATHS. Well, it's some sort like how fast i cn get all my work done.

And will be going for 2nd final interview at the company itself. Well the 1st interview is like at the employment company. Pray hard for me to get in there.

"NORTHWEST AIRLINES" as Rerservations Support Representative... it looks kind of interesting. I hope to enjoy it well...only if i GET IN. But it's a strict company. It will be lucky if i really got in. There will b 2 or 3 mnths job training if im nt wrng . Bt dere will be test every week. So, I must passed at least 80% to really get in..

Ok tata... today 2nd day of fasting month... So hate it staying at home doing nothing. God, give me something to do for this one month of fasting days...

How miracle if i was to get this good job during fasting month... It will be a GOD's gift to me in this good month...

Prayin for my brother

2008-08-27T10:54:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was fun I can say. Met alot of people at Swissotel. I met this Aunty. We talked so much like we know each other for so long. She thought I was Chinese. Haha... No aunty, I'm Malay. But alot of people mistaken me too. Some people asked me first if im chinese or malay. But some of them just come to me talk, chinese to me and I will be like ????.... hehe.

Ok, she asked me what's my hobbies and I said outdoor activities but especially i love to watch Korean dramas. So from there, we started to spill out everything about Korea. Haha... we laughed here and there. She's very friendly and interesting to talk to...

Anyway, I also met a new friend. Haha.. we exchanged numbers and decided to update each other. Even our names like almost the same haha... the manager was so confused and she also tot that we were friends bcoz we talked to each other like we knew each other for so long. Haha...

Well alot of things happened yesterday... i was going down the escalator back to city hall mrt and dere was tis guy who just take the escalator up. Well i dun noe if he's chinese or malay coz he's fair. He kept looking at me. Well just ignore him and act as if he's not there. But the funny thing was that, he tripped wen he wans to take d escalator up. Haha... See lah. Never look where you suppose to step now embarrassed yourself. Aiyoh...

Ok enuf abt yesterday...

Today my heart is so sad, looking at my brother's sad face. Yesterday he came back home late coz of his test. Today, he asks me to do him a favor by letting him to a blood pressure test on me. He's totally confident that wat he did is correct and I too hope so.

Pray for him to pass his test today before he can go to the next round. All the best to my lovely bro and dun worry... you will be a great doctor in the future. Aza aza fighting!!
Don't be sad again. My heart hurts to see you like this. Love you so much. I'll always be there for you whenever you need me...muakz!

Swissotel Interview

2008-08-25T18:45:00.002+08:00

Hmm... tomorrow going for the Swissotel The Stamford interview as guest relations assistnt. I don't know, well just giving a try coz i was selected to go for the interview. But didn't know if I will make it. If i make it, well I hope I will enjoy working there. But problem is that there are 3 shifts...

I know, i know... alot of people worried for me. Asking me, who will fetch you home if it's way way too late at night. Coz my place is totally quiet and worried anything will happen to me...

Hmm... i totally never think of that. But now I am...

Activities during NDP

2008-08-11T11:56:00.012+08:00

Didn't blog these few days coz nothing to talk about.

Well during National Day, my family & my aunt went to Mount Faber to go for trekking. It was totally fun. It's been long time I've not trekked. During my secondary school, I've always go trekking. The best experience was when I've manage to hike to Mount Rinjani's summit & get to see the sunrise. Haha... Miss all that...

We walked from Marang Trail den to Henderson Waves & finish off to Alexandra Arch. Totally tiring but who cares... as long I've had fun. We started from 8am and reach at around 12nn.

Actually this is my 2nd time. Last last week before National Day, on Sat... me, daddy, sis & bro decided to go trekking. Den my mom wanted to try so we planned to go during National Day since our planned to Batam was cancelled due to some family miscommunication. Oh well, at least we had something to do during National day. If not... totally bored at home.

Omo omo, I miss my niece. Last last week went to see her. She looks so bright now. Was totally tired playing with her and I keep yawning. So difficult to put her to sleep. Just want play, this naughty Princess. She can even laugh now plus she loves to sit than lying down. How adorable. Me & my aunt called her "Amoi" haha... When she cry she will say...."Aiyayayaya...." haha... I told my aunt that she wants to speak chinese haha...

Seeing her bright face, I'm totally happy. And I can't wait to carry her!!!Aigo aigo... Anyway she can already go out here and there...

And look how cute & chubby she is.

Ain!!! U can see more photos of my niece. I know u like it. If can, i will let u see her...

Haha... and can't forget d other day. We totally had fun cracking up jokes. And dun forget its.... businessWO-man... dun forget the WO...haha...

Playing with my fingers... that tiny fingers of hers.
After bathing..so pretty already den let her watch her Micky Mouse DVD... She knows how to watch tv... How cute is that!

Dun want to sleep, want to sit down only... naughty naughty baby 공주... :)

MVP

2008-08-01T10:45:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went for my heartscan. And yes I hv MVP. Meaning the door is not closing properly that leads the blood to flow back. Cause when the door is close the blood should not flow back. But becuz of the door is not really properly close... tat's why.

For now it's nothing serious but I've to make sure to go for thorough check-up every year. Because in the future I might nt noe if it will becum serious or not as tis can't be healed at all.

But the good thing is that the doctor said that I cn lead a normal life but must always be careful especially wen im sick... becuz germs may affect my heart to becum worsen. I've always been feeling this pain in my heart wen i was in primary. How pain it is... it is something I've endure for a long time til today.

To my frens thanks for listening to all my secrets & complains. Because i couldn't keep it to myself causing me to think too much. For you to keep my secrets with you left me less burden for myself.

Love you guys so much.

Worried...

2008-07-29T11:52:00.006+08:00

Going for heartscan on thurs & will know the outcome of my heart. I hope nothing's wrong. If not I've to do a follow-up check-up every year.

I can't stress myself out actually & I've to take care of my health properly. Even though it's not a serious matter but it can worsen my heart causin backflow of blood and this needs me to go for operation.

No wonder went for check-up d other day, the doctor did ask me if I've had operation before. Now I know. But when I was in primary school, the doctor said I was discharged where every year I've to go to the hospital for my check-up. I tot that was the last after I was discharged but I still need to do check-up again.

Ya I know, its for my own good.
God, this is scaring me.

하얀 거짓말

2008-07-28T14:44:00.005+08:00

How much time has passed with our happy moments
I can't, I won't be able to leave you
I have to smile

If I see you, I have to show you a big smile
But with just a thought of you, tears fall
I have to forget you, erase you from my thoughts
And leave you now

If we can meet once, or if you can look @ me
I hope to show you everything
My love I was hiding

I'm scared I might see you
Because my heart will get sadder thinking of leaving you
The word "I Luv U"
I couldn't say them...

I'll leave you to a far away place
Where you aren't there
I'll try to forget you like this
If time passed & if I could see you for the day

Because I loved you more than anyone else
If I could breathe by you
These are my white lies to you...

As if it didn't bother me

2008-07-27T23:01:00.007+08:00

Seeing as how my heart is pained from time to time, I must still be in love with you.
Even if I laugh, I don't laugh very well.
I just go on living with bitter laughter.

Yesterday I loved someone and today, I live on forgetting day by day.
And tomorrow I'll meet someone and love them and by then forget you.
As if it didn't bother me.

Because there was still a little attachment left
I walk on the path where I had let you go. I keep crying because your leaving sillhouette is left here, the one that I couldn't hold on to.

The truth is I still haven't forgotten you. Everyday, when I open my eyes all I have are tears.
I can't throw away your small picture in my heart.
I live on drawing you as if it didn't bother me.

"This is for u, my friend"

2008-07-15T15:44:00.006+08:00

Been lazy to blog lately...

It's been days after my aunt passed away. But i still feel like she's around. Hmm... Will be going to Indonesia if confirm the day before National Day will be flying there to visit my aunt's grave. Will be coming back on Monday.

But not fair, my daddy bringing my bro to HongKong. Anyway, it's ok. But if my daddy have to go Korea, I'll be the first to grab that chance!!
Nevermind, Ain... opps sorry, Mrs Yoochun... hehe~ can't wait to go to Korea together. For honeymoon wahaha~ Yoochun's couple & Jaejoong's couple haha~ u noe wat i mean rite ain?

Anyway, have u vote for 동방신기? Oh my god!! I can't believe they are losing out to F4. No way.
Ain, have u voted dem? Shuyi oso, help vote DBSK quickly....

Oh ya, on last Sat, last min got 2 NDP preview tix. But tis year is so boring. Nothing much. Anyway everything are all the same actually. Actually the whole day on Saturday, had to go to my uncle's hse @ bkt gmbk to accompany him to ICA & CPF building to clear all my aunt's stuff. Luckily nt that long..

Guess wat? Wen we went to have our lunch at IMM, Bagus, I saw my ex. Hah~ Yap, he saw me. Wen i saw him i jus look away act as if i didn't noe him. Hah~
Im never regret for leaving a guy like him.

Still a big HIT to me

2008-07-02T21:29:00.008+08:00

Yesterday, my aunt passed away & today received news from my mum who is in Indonesia now, saying that she was safely buried.

I still can't accept d fact that she's gone. This is d first tat one of our close family member passed away. And i really pity my cuz. They are still so young..yet. Haiz...

"Aunty Suzi, I'll always misses u & u will always be in my heart. Deres those times still fresh in my mind where i can see ur smiles & advices u use to give to me. I was so close to u."

I juz can't stop my tears frm rolling down. I try not to cry. But I dun noe how. I just can't believe it happened.

Aft sending my cuz to sch, went to my aunt's house to see my little niece. Omg! My niece is so so cute. She knows tat people take pics of her. She will stay still and let us take pics of her. How adorable!!

Get to snap some pics of her.

Wen she spread her hands like batman, me, my sis & my aunt were so noisy quickly took our hp & snap pics of her. C how confuse she is? I wanna carry her. But too bad. It's a pity seeing her like tis with a tube put inside her nose. It makes me wanna cry seeing her like tis.

This is my little niece.

Princess, aunty wanna carry u & hug u... Cuming to visit u again tomorrow. Can take alot of photos of u... :)

Our lovely Oppa!!! Cute & funny dance

2008-07-01T20:56:00.003+08:00

So hilarous...
Ain, our Xiah's funny dance haha~
So cute!!!!
Even my Hero Jaejoong oso dance bt he cant finish it. Only Xiah...
I upload tis vid 4 u, Ain... Cause of Micky but too bad he can't finish it too haha~

* To my greatest, loveable aunt, may u rest in peace. Can't believe tat u r gone today. Im very pity to my cousin who are still young. God, I wanna follow to Indonesia tonight. I hope my aunt can be brought back here. Mummy goin to Indonesia tonight. Sniff sniff. Been crying all day.

발걸음 Bal-geor-eum (Footsteps) - Jaejoong

2008-06-30T20:10:00.013+08:00

발걸음 Bal-geor-eum (Footsteps) - Jaejoong

Hae jilmu-ryeob nal, kkeul-gogan bal-georeum
THAT DAY WHEN THE SUN SET, MY FOOTSTEPS TOOK ME
Nun ddeo-boni, i-jeun jul arat-deon gos-e
OPENING MY EYES, TO A PLACE I THOUGHT I HAD FORGOTTEN
Ajik-do neo-e daehan miu-mi nama it-neun-ji
WHETHER I STILL HAVE LEFT SOME HATRED TOWARDS YOU
Ijen jayu-ropgo ship-eo
I WANT TO BE FREE NOW

Shi-ganeun, hae-gyeorhae ju-rira
I BELIEVE, TIME WOULD SOLVE EVERTHING
Nan mi-deotji, keu-geot-jocha eori-seo-geosseul-gga
WAS THAT A FOOLISH BELIEF IN ITSELF?
Ijen heul-leo-ganeun-dero, nal mat-gil-lae
NOW I WANT TO JUST GO WITH THE FLOW OF THINGS
Neowa sang-gwa-neop-janhni
IT DOESN'T MATTER TO YOU ANYMORE

Chorus: (*2)
Cheo-eum-buteo, noran jon-jaeneun
FROM THE START, A PERSON LIKE YOU
Nae-gen eopseo-sseo, niga nae-gen haet-deut-shi
NEVER EXISTED TO ME, THE WAY I DIDN'T TO YOU
Ki-eog-hae naega...
REMEMBER...
Apa-haetdeon man-keum, on-jengan neo-do
ONE DAY YOU'LL HURT, AS MUCH AS I DID
Na a-nin nu-gue-ge
FROM SOMEONE OTHER THAN MYSELF
I-reon a-peum gyeo-kkeul teni
YOU'LL EXPERIENCE THE SAME PAIN

Mian-hae, ireoh-ke bakke
I'M SORRY, THIS IS ALL I CAN DO
Hal su eop-janhni, cheong-mal i-reol su bakke
REALLY IT'S THE ONLY WAY I CAN BE
Neo-cheoreom dashi...
FOR THAT DAY TO COME...
Shi-jakhal su it-neun kei dari o-gil
WHEN I CAN START OVER LIKE YOU
Neo-reul sarang-hal su eop-go
FOR ME WHO CAN'T LOVE YOU
Neo-reul miwon-haeya ha-neun nal wi-hae
AND CAN'T HELP BUT TO HATE YOU

"My Hero Jaejoong sings very nice. I was like totally melt when watching him sings. This songs is very meaningful. Love him so much. Ok, I'm always getting goosebumps whenever he sings. Hehe.. My Oppa, Hero Jaejoong!!! Na sarang-haeyo"

-* Thank God *-

2008-06-16T10:07:00.002+08:00

Went for SATS interview on Saturday & guess wat?

I made it. But need to go for medical check-up first & den shortlisted will then be notified. Hmm.. hope I'm healthy haha..

If I start work, mayb I will start to be buzy. Can't hang out with my darlinkz buddies.. *sniff sniff*...

Missing u guys. Can't help it but keep thinking those days we shared our laughter and tears together.

Enjoy!!!

2008-06-09T11:19:00.003+08:00

Last Saturday, planned to watch "Congkak" @ CausewayPoint, midnight show... We booked 12.55am show. Only me, my sis, bro, my mom, my aunt, kak jaja, nurul & abg zul. Actually, planned in the afternoon then waited for my mom to come back home from work and discussed if she wanna follow us. Anyway the next day is Sunday, so my mom agreed on following us.

After kak jaja went to see Putri at KK, they went straight to book the ticket. While it still early, just 8pm, we went to pasar mlm @ lot 1 there buy alot of food and eat before we went for our midnight show...Then waited for them to return home first and washed up before picking us up @ 11.30pm.

When we reached, quite a lot of people wanted to watch "Congkak". The movie was great. But actually it was not that scary only the sounds makes us pop up and down from our seats... Haha... Funny the girl in the story name Lisa. When the ghost called out her name, oh my god! That is totally scary. Her name was nearly the same as me, Liza!!!

While we walked back to the carpark, they keep disturbing and calling out my name in a scary tone... While we stop at a highway. Abg zul's car was beside us and he makes funny faces to us. I was in Kak Jaja's car while my mom, sis & bro in Abg zul's car.But the good thing about this show is that after you watch, you didn't tend to have a bad nightmare about it... that's good.

I tell you, the sound there was so damn loud and I thought that after we went out from the theatre, we would be deaf... It was totally loud than the time we usually went to watch movie. Those people who's having a heart attack, I think will instantly die there.

My cousin more funny. Everytime I turn to her, she would everytime sink from her seat. Lower and lower. Haha...

Wah and guess wat... the next day, well I mean the same day because the show ended at around 2.30am, we woke up late at around 12noon. Haha.. totally tired and sleepy. Ok toodles...

Anyway, to my friends who are concern about my air stewardess interview last last week...
I didn't make it. But I thank god coz u know why, if I manage to get through the 2nd interview I've to wear a bikini for swimming lesson. Oh my god!! I don't like wearing so damn open. If ask to wear tube and short of course I can but bikini, I think I will be in Hell. I don't understand. Want to jump down from airplane need to wear nice nice ar?? Funny...

But I only manage to get thru until 2nd round only. There are totally of 3 or 4 rounds. 2 interviews, 1 swimming lesson and last is the management training. But it was a great experience trying... The scary part when we need to intro ourself infront of 10 people and 2 interviewer. I was totally shocked that I was choosen to the next round of interview. I mean out of 10 people only 3 was choosen and I'm one of them.

Actually, after the interview, we went then need to proceed to the next room for our result if we managed to go on the next round. When one of the manager of the cabin crew(air stewardess manager) came in and she said if she called out our names we need to come out and stand beside her. Then 2 chinese girls was called and then the last is... ME. I was not surprise coz I know that I was unsuccessful. I really thought that the 3 of us was unsuccessful because we didn't talk much about ourselves.

But then, the manager turn to the rest of that 7 girls sitting down and said " I'm sorry the rest of u are unsuccessful". I was like ????.. I couldn't believe that I was selected. Then she turn to the 3 of us and said that we need to go for the next round of interview. If we manage to get thru this round then we will be going for the next round of swimming lesson.

I started to get to know the 2 chinese girl but 1 of the girl is mixed. If Im nt wrong she's a mixed philippine and chinese. We chatted and telling each other that we didn't believe that we managed to get through this. They also thought that when their names were called out because they were unsuccessful too.

When my name was called, I had to go to another room for 1-to-1 interview with one of the manager cabin crew too. But it unsuccessful. Thank god! After the interview I still feel cold sweat in me. Coz it was the biggest interview I've ever been to. Totally professional. It's like going for the President interview that kind of thing.

Oh well.. that's all.

God!! I wanna follow my uncle to Indonesia!!!

Heart Thumping Fast

2008-05-29T13:21:00.012+08:00

It's been weeks I didn't blog...
Let me recalled what I can remember...

Hmm... let's see...

11th May, Sunday
Went to my Aunt's house just nearby a few blocks away from my house celebrating Mothers' Day and at the same time discussing a serious matter about one of my aunt's condition who is now in Indonesia for treatment.

Well, my aunt has been sick for so long and maybe just maybe she didn't have any hopes left. [Let's hope not but her condition is so worst already according to my uncle]
So in our family discussion of who should take care of the children in case of any emergency happened there.

And on the Friday, my uncle will be bringing his children & my grandparents to visit my aunt there so we booked the ticket online straight away after discussion cause worried if the flights are full...

16th May, Friday
The day where they fly off to Indonesia, I've to help to send my little cousin to school. Then, straight went to school, meet Ain & Ju to collect our certificate. There we met Mr Baey, Ms Jenne Foo, Mr Sky & Mammy Lui hehe.. Mrs Lui...

Oh, at the same time I miss my step bro, Shidin... And it happened we saw him teaching the girls dance... Haha.. so happy to see him...

18th May, Sunday
An emergency came up where my little niece, Putri, was hospitalised in ICU. Received call from my cousin about 10 am I think. Me, my mom, my aunt & my sis rushed to KK Hospital. When reached, my cousin was like crying & explained what happened...

Just 3 days after Putri gets to discharge, she need to be hospitalised again. So pity! When I came to see her, I feel like crying watching her with all the tubes was being put in her nose... She is just 3 months old.

We stayed at the hospital until about 7 plus until came my other cousin with my uncle. After they visited Putri, we thought of going home straight. But then, my cousin's husband, Abang Zul asked if we would like to have dinner with his family @ Swensen.

We reach Swensen about 8pm, sitting down talking nonsense & laughing out loud that people there look at us. Haha... We were totally crazy that night.
My uncle lah always like to disturb me, & say I cannot order this lah that lah.. if I eat too much later the car very heavy for him to drive. The rest of them also help my uncle to shoot at me. Haha... So bad!

Then the same thing, keep telling me that he saw me walking with a guy lah. That is so nonsense... Haha
We had too much fun. We just hanged out there til 10pm and after had our dinner, we had desert.
Then my sister came out an idea where we decided to watch a mid-night show, the new Malay ghost movie showing in cinema, "Congkak".

And we all start our noise again. Then my uncle & Abang Zul disagreed. Then my uncle make stupid jokes by saying, "Why not watch Transformer Congkak, more better". And we laughed crazily because there's a story behind it. Haha... Oh god...

Then we disturbed them saying that they are chicken lah what-so-ever lah. At that time, I was happy to shoot at my uncle. Haha... Abang Zul did not want to go because he wants to go hospital because of his broken hands and my uncle gave excuses that he wants to accompany him lah...

Haha.. like we don't know. Unfortunately, our plans didn't work where Abang Zul try to call his friends to help us look at the showtime & the places but there was no time. Because my aunt didn't bring her children along so if we have to fetch them, there was no time for the show. Cause the last show was at 11.30... By the time we discussed, it was already 11pm... Because of our last minute plan it didn't work out. So we just went home...

My uncle was laughing away and keep saying, "Come watch Transformer Congkak lah. More nicer than that Congkak movie"...

Haha... this is how my family like everytime we meet. I totally love my mother's side. But whenever we gathered, the first person they target, (if not my uncle, it will be Abang Zul) is always ME... But our jokes are always just for fun, no offence...

26th May, Monday
If I'm not wrong, on this day, received a call from my cousin, asking if I want to go for the air stewardess interview this Saturday...
My hopes of becoming one hope to come true but I've to go throught the interview first. Please wish me GOOD LUCK!!!

If I manage to be an air stewardess, my cousin will guide me & I can follow her if she needs to fly to other countries at the same time I will learn...

AZA AZA, FIGHTING!!!

If my wish come true, earn my money & I want to fly to KOREA.... My favourite country.

28th May, Wednesday
The day where I suppose to send my grandmother to NUH for her check-up. But something bad happened to me. At about 4am, I was awake with my stomach keep hurting so much. Quickly went to the toilet & suddenly I vomitted....

It was so painful. At that time, I thought I was going to die. It was seriously painful then I normally vomit... I was dizzy & feel like fainting but I try to be strong...

So I went back to bed without waking up anybody for help just hoping nothing happen...

Wake up again at 8am, washed up & get ready to fetch my grandmother @ my aunt's house, took cab to NUH...
I totally didn't feel good, I feel like fainting. Message my sister asking her to come to NUH. Luckily her school is at ITE Dover, it's nearby.

The appointment was at 11.20am, while waiting for the number, I feel very cold that I couldn't take it. I try to act normal... After we were done with the check-up, I feel way too weak that my body was totally feeling hot & I look pale. I had no appetite at all.

Took cab to my aunt's place, took medicine & sleep. Went I woke up, it was already 5pm, packed and me & sis went back home...
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And today, my heart is thumping really fast. Just 1 day left before I go for the interview....

2008-05-08T22:03:00.003+08:00

Been lazy lately to blog...

Nothing to talk about

Oh ya.. during my free time for the past 3 days, know what I did?

I drew Dong Bang Shin Ki haha...

Wanna see? CHANG!!!!

Not nice rite? Ya I know...

From top left is U-know Yunho and Xiah Junsu...

From bottom left are Max Changmin, Micky Yoochun and Hero Jaejoong

I don't noe lah.. but does the drawing look like dem?

I don't think so too...haha...

But whatever lah... at least it came out good

Ok toodles den...

"Annyong-hi chumuseyo!!! [ means Good Nite in Korea ]

Til d next post

2008-05-01T23:09:00.002+08:00

Not much.. today visit my grandparents' @ my uncle's place @ Bukit Gombak...

Hmm... sitting here and my head are thinking of my DARLING...
Missing you each and every day of my live.
Darling if u happen to read this...
This is wat I wanna say to u...
Because of time tat's the reason why we drifted apart.....
Even though we are busy in our own things...nothing that will make me forget u...
For all the times we spent time together was the best day of my life...
Never will I forget those times...

"Darling, if u happen to view my blog, do read this..... "

I know it all, it was you when I was tired, lonely
And my heart grew weary
Smiling, and at times when I cried
You were the person that was always by my side

Thanks for everything and
You prayed for me with such gr8 love
The most important person is you
A thankful person....

It's true (if I don't have u)
There is no where I can go
Always holding my hand, I know this appreciation
Just like tat 1st time (always by my side), you remain

Because you are so important
I even thank the falling tears
Thanks for everything and thanks you are here
Do you know in my heart, I'm so happy
I will face you and smile

Can u hear it? Your warm breath
Like this I will wrap your shoulders closely
This love I showed for you...

"Darlink, hope to meet up someday and spend time together again!! And I always miss ur HUG
Love ya and missing you so so much.... =) Muax!!"

2008-04-24T10:37:00.004+08:00

It's been long I didnt blog... very lazy haha..

But hey.... here I am

Anyway, to my friend,ika if you are reading this....

I'm curious how does this thing happen. I didn't say that I don't believe you. It's just that Im curious and want to know how this thing happen. If you think you want to tell me what happened yesterday, den i don't mind listening. But if you don't think you want to tell me, den its ok.

I know how you feel coz I've been in that situation before. I was totally scared and phobia but thank god nothing happened to me at all. Whereas I was alone at that time. But seriously now, I'm relieve to hear that you're ok.

It's a shocking thing for me when I received a call frm your mother about you at 8 plus in the morning. I knew something is not right wen ur mother ask me if you have contacted me yesterday. Do you know how worried I was? Trying to figure out who I should call for help. Even asked Lina to find out your friends' number in case they know anything.

Now, I want to know how did this thing happened. My heart is so uneasy til today and I'm still ???

As a friend, I'm just curious to know, it's not that I don't understand. Even if you said it's a long story, as a friend I'm willing to listen to each and every problem of yours. You always listen to my problem and give me solution to it well even though it can't be solve and I really appreciate it. But now, it's my turn to listen in anyway...

But thank god, you are ok...

Anyway, went Lot 1 yesterday accompany my sis returned her library books... and saw this nice MP4. The price is quite reasonable. Bought it, very nice. Ever since my MP3 spoilt didn't have the time to go buy. And it happened saw this MP4... well even though it's small but it's gud...

Hug - TVXQ [English Version]

2008-04-20T23:06:00.002+08:00

Found the english version of Hug by TVXQ..
Aww.. so nice. Love the meaning of the words

Once I say I love you I think you would be gone. Oh baby.
Cause we are too young to love so I can't stay little long
Hold you in my arms.
But I will be waiting for you
To say you want me to be with you.
I'll live in your love and your dream
Forever and ever.

[Chorus]
Whenever you look in my eyes
There are so many smiles and tear.
I was born to love feel so deep inside
If you need me I'll be your man.

Whenever you look in my eyes.
I do want to show you my love.
I make up my mind make your dreams come true.
Nobody can stop me to say 'I love you'

How can I ask who you are still looking for?
I'm the one. Oh baby.
Since love seems to make me blind I try to find all day long
But I cannot hold.
We talk on the phone every night
And so came closer day by day.
I touch you and kiss you and hold you to feel but in dream.

[Chorus]
Whenever you look in my eyes
There are so many smiles and tear.
I was born to love feel so deep inside
If you need me I'll be your man.

Whenever you look in my eyes.
I do want to show you my love.
I make up my mind make your dreams come true.
Nobody can stop me to say 'I love you'

In my arms,in my soul I want to hold you, baby.
You don't know how much I love you.
Do you baby.
Like a sun rising up
I can't stop loving you
Can't hold back anymore.

[Chorus]
Whenever you look in my eyes
There are so many smiles and tear.
I was born to love feel so deep inside
If you need me I'll be your man.

Whenever you look in my eyes.
I do want to show you my love.
I make up my mind make your dreams come true.
Nobody can stop me to say 'I love you'

Happy Yeay!!

2008-04-16T20:34:00.009+08:00

Fetch grandma from hospital

Discharged from hospital (thank god!! She's alrite)

Den went to meet ika

Meet Seha oso, ended class early

Went to WestMall

Bought tat necklace me & ika saw tat time

Hmm.. was bored nothing to do
Watch my Hero and Micky video again but wit my sis
Haha...

Oo.. Found their mv
They are so so cute when dey were young
haha... love this mv

Realise tat my Hero always sings first haha... he's cute!!
(so envious.. d gal so lucky get to hug Hero "sniff" "sniff")
haha.. Micky so cute, he wear lip gloss
But I love all 5 of dem. Especially their DANCE!!!

HUG - TVXQ

Ain, I gt this MV hehe...

MY DESTINY - TVXQ

Bored but it totally gr8!!!

2008-04-15T23:31:00.004+08:00

Was bored @ home
Today didn't visit my grandmother in hospital
Got alot of housework need to do...
Laundry, wash dishes, clean house etc...

After that I watched my oppa Jaejoong Hero & oppa Micky Yoochun
"DBSK JaejoongMicky Golden Fishery"
Was totally funny
Hero & Micky was totally CUTE & HOT!!!!!

The drama is abt these 2 hot, cute guys thinks their love life is like a TV Dramas
Dramas like Full House, Damo, Firebird, I'm Sorry I Love You etc..
Haha.. watch it over and over again

I was like so in love with Micky Yoochun when he said to the gal, "I LOVE YOU"
When he said tat, it was totally romantic.. Im sure all d gals will be like melting if he said tat to them... well I do...
Nt only tat... he even sang so beautifully
He even told all the people in the restaurant that he's in love with tat gal
Aww... so sweet and romantic
Like telling the whole world that she is his heart
Im so envious...

And as for my Hero, he fights for the gal
Haha.. so funny
I was so jealous wen he carried the gal ( I wan him to carry me hehe... JK.. its like 'ya, rite')
I love wen he said to d gerl...
"Do u wan to eat OR Do u wan to kiss me?"
"Do u want to eat OR Do u wan to live with me?"
"Do u want to eat OR Do u wan to die with me?"
Haha...he is so cute...

Overall the drama was totally great and enjoyable

Love TVXQ so so so much!!!! To my Jaejoong Hero especially.. he's cute! And Micky Yoochun.. he's romantic!

Saranghae-yo Oppas!!! (Love ya, oppa)

Very Tiring!!

2008-04-13T22:18:00.002+08:00

Gosh so so tired came back from NUH...
Was @ NUH from around 10 am and now reached home at 9pm
Sad... grandmother is hospitalized again haix :(
The story goes like this....

Yesterday was deciding to celebrate my parents' anniversary
Unfortunately daddy cant join us so decided to call my grandparents to join
It happened wen my grandparents overnite at my uncle's crib
Coz need to look aft my cousins
Pity them both my aunt and uncle went to Indonesia to get medicine for my aunt
So the children is left alone at home...
To make it more merrier... we decide to call my cousins to join too

Went to my uncle's crib at Bukit Gombak to fetch them
And then we could go straight to dinner at "Habib Family Restaurant" there
But unfortunately, grandmother was not feeling well
Send her to the 24 hours clinic
But it SUCKS!!!!!
The doctor wah sickening sey...
Of course wen u see doctor obviously u wil say wats wrong wit us and d history of the sickeness if u hav any
But this doctor... WAH!!! Feel like smacking his head arh
Everytime my mom tell him, he will giv a BIG SIGH like dun like to hear what people say
Some more he can say, "Why the story so long?"
OMG!!! This Bukit Gombak 24 hours clinic SUCKS!!! DESPISE that place!!!
Next time dun need to come to work if attitude like tat

And today waited the whole day for my grandmother to get the ward
They say at 2pm then get the bed
But we waited and waited and waited.....
Until 5.30pm then got her a bed already

And guess what?
Saw this cute chinese guy haha... we were like staring at each other for like..
I dun noe how many sec
Haha.. he saw me first then I saw him looking at me and we were like staring at each other
Then feel bored I went out and buy food
Came back he still there and he stare at me again
Saw him but I didn't look hehe...
Haix.. cute :)

Ok lah need to tuck in now
Tomorrow need to go hospital accompany my grandfather
Will be busy all day wen my grandmother is hospitalized
Haissh..

Too Emotional

2008-04-07T11:03:00.005+08:00

TOO EMOTIONAL - Vanessa

I thought I had control
But I slipped, and I don’t, and I don’t know where to go
I thought I knew it all
But all I do is think about the next time I see you
I thought I had control
But we kissed, and I slipped and I don’t know where to go
All I really know
It’s getting too emotional

When you came to me
Yeah, I thought you’d be like every other guy that I’d ever met
We’d hang for a while then I’d soon forget you
But this is something new
I was not prepared to wonder where you are when you’re not with me
This feels so crazy

I thought I had control
But I slipped, and I don’t, and I don’t know where to go
I thought I knew it all (knew it all)
But all I do is think about the next time I see you
I thought I had control
But we kissed, and I slipped and I don’t know where to go
All I really know
It’s getting too emotional

It’s a strange feeling
To care about someone,
I guess I never really did ‘til I met you, boy
How was I to know how you would affect me?
They say I talk too much
I talk too much about you
The definition of being out of control and I don’t wanna feel this anymore

I thought I had control (I think)
But I slipped, and I don’t, and I don’t know where to go
I thought I knew it all (knew it all)
But all I do is think about the next time I see you
I thought I had control
But we kissed (kissed), and I slipped (slipped) and I don’t know where to go
All I really know
It’s getting too emotional

I get this feelin’ inside my heart when
You come around, and when we’re apart then
I feel so torn up inside
I’ve gotta get control of my life

I thought I had control (I think)
But I slipped, and I don’t, and I don’t know where to go
I thought I knew it all (knew it all)
But all I do is think about the next time I see you
I thought I had control
But we kissed (kissed), and I slipped (slipped) and I don’t know where to go
All I really know
It’s getting too emotional

(Before I came, along...)

Im totally loving this song... the words are totally beautiful and meaningful :)

2008-04-06T18:45:00.002+08:00

To someone who thinks tat u fall in love for tat someone special..

Dun be afraid to voice out to him/her

Who knows he/she is d one for you...

You might nt know..

Maybe its ur fate to mit him/her...

Ok here goes...

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As I appear over the top of the hill

You see me

I don't need to speak

You already know what's in my mind

Without even knowing why

We came to be together as if just by chance

I wont change my mind

Just as a rainbow doesnt stop until it reaches the heavens

If we are in love

We shouldnt worry about our hearts

Becoming lonely or broken

I just believe tat this not the end

So lately I've woken up to the fact

Tat luv cant be denied

It seemed like you come to me by chance

But I know tat it was fate tat brought us together

If we are in luv

We shouldn't be afraid of anything

Pulling us apart

I just believe tat this is not the end

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Boredom

2008-04-05T13:14:00.002+08:00

Another boring Sat..

Well suppose to go out wit my friend

Watch movie

But she cant make it

Coz she need to go down to her company

Got some work to do

Haix...

Anyway if i go out today

Pity my bro

He's coming home from his camp

Didn't bring key

So, stay @ home and do housework lor...

Yesterday nothing much

Went out wit my friend

We went to WestMall

Haha..long time nv go there

Stay so near oso long time nv go haha..

Funny me! Hehe...

Anyway went there to buy something

And saw tis beautiful necklace

With a small ring written love

Different colour ring writes different word

Got love, peace, luck, happiness etc..

Tot of buying

Skali den forgot haha..

Den we went to IMM and Jurong Entertainment

We went to Fuji Ice Palace (is tat d name @ JE? I dun noe, 4get)

We sat down & watch people skates..

Saw tis one couple holding hands and skate

Awww... so romantic

With tat kind of atmosphere and oso the music

It is so perfect!Haha..

Yaya... can dream only

But it's totally romantic

Plan of going there one day and skates

Well even thou Im nt gud @ it

But it will be fun to try :)

Oh ya..
Dere's this one chinese guy
He's so cute
And he skates well hehe...
CUTE!!!

But yesterday was funny ar
Was walking back from JE to MRT
Den this one chinese guy
Walk pass by me
He keep looking back @ me
I was like ???

Ask my fren if my nose is there or my eyes...haha
To make sure eveything have haha
Den the guy look at me like tat
See lah keep looking at me
Den skali he almost trip at the small stairs...wahaha..
"Hey mr., look ware ur going okie"

Damn I hate walking at the highway there (the cck highway der)
My friend said tat lucky she's walking home wit me
If nt tomorrow paper come out
"Liza being kidnapped!!!"
Haha.. bloody hell lah my friend

When I was in Nitec something scary happened to me

And it was when I was walking bck from school of course alone
Okie let me tell you...
Never tell this to anybody except for my close frien

Alighted @ CCK and walk at the shelter to my old school, Kranji Sec
Wen I was crossing the road
Dere was this car suddenly stop infront of me
I was totally shocked ar
A chinese guy came out from the car
And he intro himself
While his frien drive d car to the carpark opp my sch...

Saw 2 of his frien came out frm d car
I was like "oh no''
Worried tat dey mite kidnapped me or something
Aft he intro
He then asked for my nmbr
He said tat my face look like chinese
I was so scared
(tell me who's nt afraid wen suddenly a stranger came up to u & ask for ur nmbr)
I wanted to giv him my dad's nmbr
But he said he missed call me on d spot
So yah damn my plan gone
No choice had to give my nmbr
Den he ask ware I stay
Haha... I pointed to my friends' house
Hehe..

Aft ended d conversation
I quickly walked off hoping tat everthing ended there
But den this guy called me and send me messages
I didnt pick up
From there onwards he never call or message me back

Tat's why my friend always ask me why I alighted @ Yew Tee
And nt CCK
Well.. now u noe why
Im phoebia with all this case already
To me YewTee is more safer
CCk is scary especially at the highway der
Haix...why me? why me?!!!

Hmm...Tomorrow go market @ bukit gombak

As usual every sun

Meet my aunt, darling grandmother & lil cuz

Always spent time with dem aft buying groceries

Sit at coffeeshop, chit chat & laughing with jokes

God!

I love my family hehe...

They are d best in my whole life

Ok lah.. toodles..muakz!!

Poly Posting

2008-04-03T18:04:00.003+08:00

Wat to do..
I didnt get in coz i think its v difficult to get to Tourism course
In SP sum more....
With my gpa like tat
Nah...cant make it

But i cant be sad
I guess its time for me
To look for a gud real full time job
Ware I can stay for life

Trying to sign up
Air stewardess
Hope I can get it
I guess
Ok toodles...

My Results Out!!!

2008-04-02T21:12:00.004+08:00

Came back from sending my lil cuz to school and grandparents to check-up @ NUH
Thank god everything alrite, nothing serious already.
Don't need to come back for check-up again.

Took cab home bro sick got fever
Reach home around 6pm..
Quickly check my results and...

Got 3.145 (3.2)
Is it gud or bad?
I dun noe.
Dun noe if wanna continue studying.
Feel like looking for full time job
As an air stewardess... hehe..
Am I suitable for that? I seriously dun noe.
Any suggestion??
Friends and relatives said I've got the potential to be one.
But dun noe haiz...
But if I get to be one,
I wish to go to KOREA haha...
Thats in my first travel list haha...

Ok im getting bored now....
get result already.
Now waiting for the poly... haiya......
Now, need to think alot of things already...
turning 20 already is totally nt easy...

Anyway.. that day see my lil niece,
oh my god!!!
She is so so cute.
Cant wait for her to get out of the hospital..
Wanna play with her.
So white, like a dove..
Of course lah, see who the father is...
Malay + Chinese blood...

Congrates kak jaja & abang zul
For having the first beautiful baby girl...
she is so adorable..

Aiyo!!
Now my cousin settle already
My aunts and uncles are all so noisy about me and my sis's turn...
Everytime meet them,
they will ask me when will I get married.
Excuse mua... haven got bf already ask me abt marriage.
Some more Im still 20 okay...
Not the time to think about marriage
Okayz...

Haven found one yet...
Dont noe mayb the person is just in front of me
But I didnt see at all. Haha..
Mayb Im blind or mayb I do hv feelings for tat someone
But act as if nothing happen like he doesnt mean anything to me haha...
Coz u noe why??
Because Im afraid tat person may nt b interested in me,
It will hurt alot..
It's like sometimes i feel his love, sometimes i dont...

What kind of person Im looking for?
Hmm...
Someone noes coz she did an interview with me haha...
During work got nothing to do so publish own magazine haha...

But Im nt into malay guys... haiz I dun noe.
To me they are nt understanding
And nt tat serious at all. Well nt all.
Actually im into chinese guy since in secondary,
To me they are more understanding
And more interesting because we share different thinking...

Because wen i was in sec sch,
I like this one chinese guy,
We didnt confess to each other
But is obvious to me tat he's into me.
During his b'dae party, he really took care of me...
Making sure I didnt drink the wrong drinks and mixed around wit some of his bad friends etc..
(he does noe some of his friends are bad haha..)
The obvious thing was tat
He fought wit one of his so called close friend, our classmate
Because why?
He wanted to be my partner during dance
But his close friend was my fixed partner for the dance
They were scolding & fighting with each other in chinese

I dun understand
But my best friend told me what happened...
He scolded my partner saying.."Who are u to take my girl"
I was like cant believe my ears lah...

He's a gr8 guy
But... I dun think he's d type who will sacrifice to convert
And also he always fight so... that scares me more.
But it was a gr8 memory when we get to dance together..
So romantic haha...
Haiz difficult ar...its nt easy anyway

Arghh!!
Whateva...
Just dun wanna think about this for now.
Makes me so headache...
Muz think about studies and work first
Then can stress up thinking about personal life...
Ok lah... adios!! And ba-bye...muakz!!!

Sentosa with galfrens (Class SO)

2008-04-01T00:31:00.031+08:00

Came back home around 11pm. Went gathering with Ain, Ju, Shuyi, Jessie, Sab and her boyfriend @ sentosa.

It was totally fun. We had alot of fun playing ball and taking alot of pictures until Ju's camera low battery and all of our handphones memory are full haha... Share our stories and laughing here and there. But the bad part was tat me, Sab and Jessie kena mosquito bite ar.. Jessie kena alot worst. Hands and legs all get bitten by the mosquito. But weird Ain, Ju & shuyi didnt get mosquito bite. Ya, mayb becoz our blood is sweet thats why. Haha...

We stay at the beach until dark as we get to see the sunsets. It was totally beautiful and it was totally romantic. And we even sitted at the rite spot. Because why? Because our eyes suddenly caught by the fireworks from the "Song of the Sea". Totally beautiful and undescribable. Hehe.. way too romantic. Haiz..wish if i am with that special someone watching the fireworks and the sunsets. Hmm... dun think it will happen. I can just dream about it. Haiz, sad lah... but it was nice enjoying the atmosphere with our close friends then.

Ok, here is the so called scary-weird-funny part. Around 8 or 9pm, we started packing to go off. Suddenly, Jessie's slippers lost. We were all panic and started to look for her slippers. Plus it was dark and we could nt see clearly...

We felt that it was weird because we saw no one took Jessie slippers. It cant be like it disappear suddenly and the slipper walks on its own hahaha... And we all started to think of the negatives where we tot there was ghost. But we didnt give up looking. Then suddenly, Ju found Jessie's slippers... Guess where?

Haha... rite at the end far away from our area... it was very far. We were like asking ourselves arh.... how the hell did her slippers go so far. Before that all of us had to dig out all the things from our bags and the rubbish just to look for her slippers in case it slipped inside any of our bags. Haha... so funny.

Then Jessie just realised that she forgotten to wear her slippers back when we took pictures of us jumping... hahaha... so funny... what a day.

Anyway, thanks ju & sab for the gift of our farewell...

Thanks ju for the wee-wee-wa-woo.. it is so cute ar...love it so so much. U noe i want that haha..

And sab thanks for the photos of us... it is a very gud memory. I totally cherish it. thanks again.Ok here are the pics i hv for now... ok toodles...

Anyway.. had a lot of fun today... so whats our next stop? Of course, our long time planning the SEOUL GARDEN!! Haha.. Since before we graduate we've been planning of going Seoul Garden and eat. But til today, haha... nt even a dust at all hahaha...

Okie adios! And ba bye

Im Back!!!

2008-03-30T13:46:00.005+08:00

Hey people, I'm back!!!

Went for holiday in Genting Highlands and it was totally fun.

Woke up early in the morning @ 4.30 am. Left house at around 5.30am because meeting Ain at CCK control station @ 5.45am. But Ain was late and she reached cck around 6.15am. We quickly bought our breakfast in Mac in case we go hungry. Then we quickly took a train and took a cab from jurong east because we were so late. We were suppose to be at Boon Lay Shopping Complex there @ 7am. But we were at jurong around 6.45am so we wont have enough time to take bus from boon lay.

Luckily we reached exactly 7am. But then, some of Roshen's classmates have not reach yet so she said the latest is 7.30am. Wah liao.. if we know arh, we can still take train and alight at boon lay. Haiz...

I feel so pai seh lah.. coz this outing to Genting is actually Roshen's class. We are so called the extras... haha. But luckily we met Roshen's cousin and get to know her.

Ok dun hv to tell the whole story ok...blablablablah...

Oh ya.. just the first day in Genting already, me, kak baya & ain had a little adventure..Haha...
Let me tell u what happened. We were walking, window shopping after we gotten our rooms. That was at night after we freshen up. We walked and walked. We were actually with, Roshen, Mr Faris, Naz & Naqkiah.. but then i dun noe somehow we were separated. So it left me, ain & kak baya. Only the 3 of us. So, we just continue walking and doing our window shopping.

Then there was these group of malay guys, I dun noe if they are from singapore or malaysia. But kak baya said they are frm s'pore because she recognised one of them. So, when we walked passed them, they were like shouting "Kranji arh..sape Kranji? Eh Kranji, Kranji!!!! I was shocked ar..

But when I looked at them, I dont even recognise any of them. And how the hell they know Im from Kranji?? Im confused... So, we walked quickly and took escalator up. Then ain said that she saw them following us from behind. So, we walked quickly, took another escalator down from another side trying to lost track with them. Then we run to the lift and quickly ran back to our rooms. Omg!!! We were like so scared ar. Yah yah..all blamed me. Haha.. because of me, both of them also kena. Sorry lah... its nt like I know them.

Btw.. saw this cute chinese guy working in Padini @ Genting haha.. i dun noe how many times i've walked passed tat shop and saw him... he so so cute. :P

Me and kak baya called him No.2..because why? Because wen we walked passed the shop and we saw him. He was folding a shirt. Then kak baya said,"Tu!" pointing to him. And suddenly he turned and saw me. It happened that both of us turned at the same time. I was totally pai seh lah... haha.. kak baya lah ni haha... malu kite..

I quickly covered my face and walked passed quickly.

Anyway.. pixs haven gotten yet from any of them. So.. I'll post all the pix we had maybe around this week.. hehe

Ok toodles... yeay!!

Today going hospital gonna see my cute niece... cant wait to see how she looks like..haha.. Because my cousin's husband is chinese. Must be cute and pretty... hehe...

Ok lah.. adios and ba bye!!! Muaks :)

One More Day Left

2008-03-23T22:14:00.004+08:00

Today was deployed @ T2 Departure Hall. Don't even know people from 2nd shift. But make friend at last. And guess what!!! I was deployed together wit the guy I had a crush on. Haha.. He's malay but he looked like chinese. But unfortunately, when I was standing at the departure hall, he was doing the kerbside. And when I have to do the kerbside, he had to be in the departure hall. Haha.. Very difficult to see him. Wish to talk to him haiz.. but never mind at least get to see and it is the first deployed together with him...

Then when my shift ended, my mom,sis, aunty, little cousins and my grandmother surprised me by visiting me at the airport. It was just nice when I knocked out from work, they happened to arrived infront of me. I was so so surprised and happy to see them haha...

So bring them to tour around Terminal 3 with Ain tagging us along. Keep laughing here and there haha.. Then had my dinner at the food court in T3 but Ain had to go off coz her parents are going out so she's meeting them.

Feel fulled and so we headed home around 8 plus.. Oh ya! Jun Hao called me alien again.. didn't saw him. But he saw me called me alien haha... then he asked if that was my family and he was scared wahahaha... funny ar...

Tot just now go T3 can see Jun Hao then wanted to disturb him but unfortunately didn't see him. haha...anyway left one more day which is tuesday, my last day working in airport. Im gonna miss all my airport gangs during the time where we had alot of fun together after work..and spending time chatting and laughing during work. Gonna miss all that.

Oh ya!!! Guess what??!! Yesterday, when I was going to work .... in train, there were a group of foreign students boarded the train from Commonwealth if Im not wrong...

They are korean students haha.. and guess what?
One of the students looked like my favourite boyband-actor kind-of-look... my dearie oppa, si won haha..

He was so cute.. I don't know but he look exactly like that boyband-actor.... haha.. omg. Then ain said mayb that is him or his little brother haha...

But they alighted at city hall haiz sad lah...

"Oppa, saranghae-yo!!!!..."

boring but great day at work

2008-03-22T23:34:00.006+08:00

Today boring coz was deployed alone @ T2 Landside, Skytrain E... nobody to talk to...

But lucky there was no weird2 questions by the passengers...haha.. if not I will stuck there don't know what to say.. because the information counter very far lah...

But niwaes... abg bear (bro bear) haha.. usually call him tat coz dun noe his name...
He came and accompany me... haha lucky got someone to talk to..
After that he went off.. suddenly he came back and guess what???

He bought for me chocolates @ The Cocoa Trees!!! Awww.. sho shweet... haha..

Ask him for what .. he said for my belated b'dae.. haha funny arh.. buat lawak.. aniwaes thnx big bro... :)

And today time rans very fast.. do u noe because of why...
Because Hakim was there wit me... as he was my IC so he can walk here and there.
And because i was deployed alone, he accompanied me at the booth..
Haha.. we joke and laugh until we didn't realize of the time....

haiz.. tomorrow work but hey cheer up, Liza...
Because you have 1 day left before u are free!!!! Yeay!!! haha.. ok toodles and ba bye

yeay!!!

2008-03-19T02:38:00.002+08:00

Haiz..so tired working from 5pm - 11pm. Was deployed @ T3 Kerbside. Damn I hate all kerbside. But time ran very fast. At least I don't have to waste my time.

Sad coz not alot of my 3rd shift gangs working. I had to deploy with people who I don't know... because I was always deployed in the transit. But nowadays, I've been deployed outside. But at least for today(i mean yesterday), ok lah...

Haha.. Jun Hao very bad arh..call me alien. Everytime he sees me, he will call me alien. Bad guy haha.. but fun to talk with him. Was happy to have him as my IC. Talked and talked with him and ahmad, suddenly miz the skytrain. But lucky it was still early. If not haiyo.. I think I miz the train from tanah merah to jurong again... damn..

Anyway Im resigning soon.. Tuesday will be my last day. I feel like overnight on tues then on wednesday then go home. Haha.. Crazy or what? Hehe..

Can't wait to go to Genting Highland!!! Genting Highland, here I come...
Den come back go for class gathering on 31 march..
Got alot of outing so need to get ready my organizer haha...
Need to plan meet my darling carebear and my darling rebecca...
Miz her so much...

"Darling sorry cant be there to celebrate your b'dae. Yap I miss you like crazy too. We'll meet one day ok..."

Ok tats all for my post.. til the next post
AZA AZA FIGHTING!!!!

Someone's watching over me

2008-03-17T11:23:00.004+08:00

I found myself today
Oh, I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
Voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to stay
But you always used to say
But its written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that red light
And it's shinning on my destiny
Shinning all the time
And I won't be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark

I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
It doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself
And you'll find how
And it's only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself
And follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me
Someone's watching over me

"This lyric is really meaningful to me. It's about how I going thru rite now. I'll try not to break down and I will never give up. Maybe God is testing me to see if I can endure living a life like this. Enduring my difficulties for 20 years. Smiling outside but crying inside. People never know with my fake smiles I've shown. Only to some of my closest friend knows about how i live with my fake smiles...

Thanks guys for being there for me especially when I really feel like Im alone in this world"

Scared but happy

2008-03-15T10:48:00.005+08:00

Let me tell you what I did on...

12 Mar, Wednesday

Came back to work again. It's like the very first I started work. Long time didn't work. So a little scared. Was happy bcoz got deployed @ T2 Departure Hall with Ain. We spent time talking and laughing killing our time when we get bored and there were no passengers to approach. I started this crazy idea of her becoming a song writer. Because we were so thirsty.. then came a song "Tempted to Touch" in her mind. And she made her own song with the song title called "Tempted to Drink". Haha... rite ain??

Then next, we decided to publish our own magazine called "Affection Magazine"...I know...

We are crazy rite? But at least we did something to kill our time rather than just stand there for our time and look at people walking here and there... But it was fun. The time ran very fast becos of our stupid ideas..

13 Mar, Thursday

And yap, working...

Sad was deployed alone and didn't know anybody there. But happy becos get to be stationed at my favourite booth...T3, Skytrain B. Haha... There I met a chinese girl but I dun noe her name. But we know each other becoz one of those days before I had my 2 weeks leave, I was deployed with her before during 2nd shift.. And yap.. supposely I start @ 6pm-12am. But unfortunately, there are no more transport for the West side people so we have to reschedule our shift to either 2nd or 4th shift... But I still love my 3rd shift becoz of all my 3rd shift gang... so decided to change from 5pm - 11pm, then need to catch up the last train.

Anyway back to my deployment @ T3.. when the 2nd shift people went back already, I was there alone waiting for the 3rd shift people to come in. Jacklyn was @ T3 same with me. Lucky I got friend who I know.. Then our IC was Jun Hao. Haha.. He's very funny ar..
He called me alien. Very bad seh this guy. But he's very friendly. The funny part was when he ran here and there from the pier to the skytrain to look at the FITV display.
Haha.. nice having him as my IC...

14 Mar, Friday
And yes, yesterday...
Was deployed @ T2 Departure Hall with Theresa. I've met this one malay guy, his name is Khairul. He was deployed outside @ T2 Departure Kerbside. Actually I dun even know him. Theresa ask if I want to help Khairul outside becoz he was the only one outside.. Because by rite, there should be at least 3 to 4 people outside but I dun noe what happened. So I went outside and started to talk to him. He's a very nice guy... We killed our time by chatting and laughing...
Then I switched with Theresa. I went back in to my booth while Theresa stand at the Kerbside.
Then 5 minutes later, saw Khairul came towards my booth and we start to chit chat again and laugh when weird people around us pass by. I was happy to get to know him. If not, I dun noe who I wan to spend my time with when I get bored.
Luckily he was at the booth with him becoz he help me with the passengers too. Because of him, I didn't get bored and also becoz of him... the time ran very fast.

Haha...thank him for passing my time chit chatting with him. But too bad, I had to go off at 10.45pm but he had to be there until 12am... After I gone, he had no one to talk to.. he said he was going to be bored becos I've to go. Haha.. but seriously gr8 to know him.

And oh ya... today is my interview at the Tourism School, that day during Career Fair they came down to our school. I hope I get to go through it. Wish me best of luck!! Aza Aza FIGHTING!!!!

Hurray!!!

2008-03-12T10:13:00.003+08:00

Yeay!!! At last!
My last PR paper yesterday. Oh god!
Luckily the paper was not that tuft. I studied like hell sey...in the end the units I learnt so hard didn't come out. What sey!!!

But nevermind it's already over...
Now I wanna enjoy myself before I continue my studies..
Oh gosh just remember...
Cannot enjoy lah...WORKING!!!!

Haiz..
Oh ya.. this saturday going for my Tourism school talk.. I hope I get in. Cross my finger for the interview.
Aite... view to my next post!!! Tata..muakz!!!

Whatever Will Be Will Be

2008-03-06T22:24:00.005+08:00

Sometimes I feel like I'm a bird with broken wings
At times I dread my now and envy where I've been
But that's when quiet wisdom takes control
At least I've got a story no one's told

I finally learned to say
Whatever will be will be
I've learned to take
The good, the bad and breathe
'Cause although we like
To know what life's got planned
No one knows if shooting stars will land

These days it feels naive to put your faith in hope
To imitate a child, fall backwards on the snow
'Cause that's when fears will usually lead you blind
But now I try to under-analyse

Is the rope I walk wearing thin?
Is the life I love caving in?
Is the weight on your mind?

About my life

2008-03-05T21:26:00.004+08:00

I'm getting bored with my life and I'm starting to hate myself
Why?
I don't know why.
Anyway, I'm graduating soon and I don't know what my future leads me to..
I just wish to turn myself back to a 6 years old girl where I don't have to think of anything else..
All I have to think is just play for all I care

I hate being myself..
I've to think of friends wonder if they still love me and care for me like I always do...
Think about boyfriend wonder if the person I like do like me too or having long-term relationship with a guy ...
Think about job wonder if I really get the job of my dream...
Think about money wonder if I hav enough for my daily expenses and for my further studies...
Think about family wonder if we are falling apart (hoping nt to happen again)...

& etc...

haish... why am I feeling this way?

I laugh,

I joke,

I smile,

But inside of me...

I feel restless and I don't wish to think of anything else anymore
I feel like half of my life is gone

And I don't know what is it

Don't ask me

I just need........
Someone to build my strength back
Someone who can stay up with me and accompany me whenever I need them
Someone to let me lean on their shoulder whenever I need it
Someone to share my sadness & happiness with me whenever I want to
Someone who stay up just to talk to me and fill up my lonely heart

I don't know what to say anymore, I just...need that someone!!!

I do hav friends all around me whoever or whenever I want to turn to
But to me, they are the people who always makes me laugh, joke around, go shopping together like spend time together..

But what I mean is...
I need someone who knows without me telling them...
I use to have that someone but somehow we lost contact
Whenever I need someone to talk to, to lean to, to cry with, to scream with...
I always turn to that special someone...but now whenever I try to turn to that person, I just realise that we already lost contact for 3 years plus
But I always feel that someone is still beside me and will always be.

Exam's coming!!!

2008-03-04T01:06:00.002+08:00

Oh gosh.. exam coming already and it's next week!!!
Still haven study yet. I don't know how to study. I'm very lazy already.
This week is the last day of my school. Sad.

Happy going to graduate soon but sad at the same time coz will miss all my friends...
Of course we can still contact with each other but it will not feel the same because all will have their own things to do in life. Same goes to me. I don't know if Im free to meet up all my friends but I will always make an effort to meet them.

"Don't worry guys.. I will make my time to meet up with you guys.. If I can do that with my primary school friend, why cant I make my time to meet you guys."

But I don't wish these things to come to an end...I feel like I've another family and they are YOU GUYS..my favourite classmates and my SC members who Im always close with.
Thanks you guys, for having me to be part of you guys and understanding me these 2 years. You guys are the bestest people I've ever met in my entire life..

Well, anyway I hope I pass my exams and go to Poly. Jiayou LIZA!!! You can do it!!!
KAJA!!!

Okie lah I guess I need to stop here coz I need to help sumone create something...haiz
And Im always receiving bad news these days...

1. My darling grandfather went for eye operation. But his eyes are getting worst. So need look after him. Doctor say dont do this dont do that. But still dun listen. My aunty advice him oso dun wan to listen. So here I come to his rescue. He sure will listen to me. Have to take of him everyday after school. So will always go my aunt's house after school to see him and give him medicine. No matter what I still have to cum visit him everyday coz if not he will always call me and ask if im coming there or not.. hehe cute lah my grandfather... like duh my darling mah...hehe

2. My favourite aunty not feeling well coz she's having cancer. On the day my grandfather went for operation, she went for the kimo therapy is it the name? I dun noe... Ya heard from my uncle saying that she fainted while on therapy. When she woke up already, she told him that she tot that she's going to die... Was shocked hearing that. Please dont say that. She's the best aunt I've had. Sniff sniff.. The people who you always love so much will always have to go...

3. My heart keep hurting so much. Im worried that my heart problem that I used to have came back. Am I stressing myself too much?? Im scared.

photos with ju,kala & banu

2008-03-02T01:41:00.021+08:00

Project project!!

2008-02-24T22:21:00.006+08:00

Haiz.. just finish my Frontpage website project. I hope with all the effort I've done in this project, I get good grades. If not... I kill myself!!!! Haha... just joking. What for should I kill myself just because of this project. Stupid right??

Anyway, why can't I see him now. Ain, I miss him. What should I do to stop missing him?
I try to but I can't !!! I'm so into him right now. He's the only person who makes my heart beats faster and slower at the same time. I've never felt this way whenever I was with my ex.

Oh god!! What's happening to me??!!! Somebody kill me now!! I feel so restless whenever i didnt get to see him everyday. It's only like if I'm lucky, I will see him. Haiz.. But why am I feeling this way towards him? Why not someone else..? Trying to like someone else but all I could think of is his laughter, his jokes, his smiles, his everything that makes me smile.

Also whenever some guys propose me to be his girl, I will start to think of him (on the day we gathered together and crack jokes). Seriously, I've never fallen in love becoz of his looks. If I'm so into his looks, from the very first day I met him.. I would have already fallen for him. But my hearts only starts to open up to him on the day we talked and shared alot of things together and also all the stupid jokes that make me laugh non-stop...

And this one song, when I listen to it.. it seriously share the same meaning on what I feel right now..

I used to turn around and walk away

Never stopped to play

Cause there was no attraction

But in my heart you start to grow on me

Kind of a suddenly

So now I've change direction

Knowing it right seems strange

Love came over me

Feeling the luck has changed

Do you want me, like I want you?

I wish upon a star, wanna be right where you are

You set my world on fire, babe I've got a crush on you

In this cold world, where dreams are few

Baby, I want you

Is it too much to ask for?

I'll take you places where you never been

If you just give in

So babe, it's now or never

Weird thing.. it is never a coincidence you will pass by the one you admire even when you wish that to happen so much. You always pass by the person who admire you but you don't. ( well, I don't know about you guys...but it happens to me)... haiz.. God is really testing me..

" God send us the bad ones first because he has save the good ones for us later "

Dates wit galfrenz @ changi airport - nikki & agatha

2008-02-23T12:07:00.020+08:00

Outing wit galfrens - nikki & agatha @ changi airport, having dinner at Popeye... Totally enjoyable because it's been long we have never gone out like this. I hope that we do this often so we will always keep in touch with each other. Memories of yesterday will always stays in my heart... Luv ya, guys... Galfrenz!!!!

After that, at night around 8 plus.. spent time with Ju, Kala & Banu. But photos will be given on monday so keep on viewing. Mayb I will post the photos on Monday night or tuesday..See if I'm not lazy to update my blog hehe.. ok toodles

Im Confused

2008-02-18T17:29:00.003+08:00

Im in a difficult situation right now.
Ok this is the story on what happened to me..

I've been into this one guy for so so long
Well actually, I didn't feel any attraction in him when I first met but months passed
Talking to him but as a friend... and suddenly I was totally into him til today but he didn't know that...

Then one day, one of my friend intro me with one of her guy's friends' brother
I told my friend that I can only make friends with him only and nothing more than that.
So... days passed knowing this guy..but but...
Suddenly he proposed me to be his gal, and I told him that I need more time to decide
The reason is because I can't forget this guy I'm into right now ( tell me who can forget a person you are totally into)

But this guy, "W"(can't tell his name, can only show his first letter)
Keep asking me everyday. And give me all sort of questions like why can't I just accept someone who is already infront of me.
Like HELLO!!! What's the use of me accepting you if I've got no feeling for you, rite??

No matter what... I have to tell him even if I have to break his heart..This is the best for me to do... Coz I don't want to cheat him...
And well, the day is today...
I rather tell him today than to tell him on Wednesday when we meet..

So I told him the whole story...

And thank god!!! It is settled. I've release all my stress already.
By the way, I want to thank Nisa, my darling for giving her time to give me advice. Seriously, I needed someone to talk to in this matter and it happen I saw Nisa today and told her everything.
And yap.. i've made up my mind now...
Im only into one guy right now... and its him in my mind and in my heart . Unless this guy cant accept me, then I can open up my heart to someone else.. But for now... Guys Im sorry. Im Single but not available hehe...

Happy News!!

2008-02-15T00:40:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, was having my Ms Excel CA
Lucky it was easy
Only the IF functions & Pivot table came out
And not the Vlookup or the Hlookup
Thank god!!

After that me, ain & ju stayed in school til 2.30pm
Actually the CA ended at 1pm
But we ate and waited for Sab
Coz Mrs Yeo wanted to see all the LCCI students
Dun noe why but I think it's regarding about the poly thingy..I guess

Well..me, ain & sab then planned to go SHOPPING @ JurongPoint
Alot of nice & pretty clothes but it was x arh..
After made our way home at around 4.30pm to 5.30pm

And guess what??!!!
Received a message from my cousin saying that
She has already given birth, a baby girl
YEAY!!! I have another nephew
The first one is a boy but from my 1st cousin (abg sedare)
And now is a girl from my 2nd cousin (kakak sedare, abg sedare nye adek)

Wow!! Given birth during valentine's day?! Amazing
I hav 2 nephews now..hehe...
Congrates to Kak Jaja & Abg Zul for your first baby girl...
Confirm baby cute giler. Can't wait to pinch that chubby cheek just like my first nephew
So damn cute when he wore a bee costume haha...
Will show his photo one day.. damn chubby

Crush On You

2008-02-12T20:12:00.000+08:00

I wish upon a star
Wanna be right where you are
You set my world on fire
Boy, I've got a crush on you
I wish upon a star
People say how right we are that we should be together
Boy, I've got a crush on you

I used to turn around and walk away whenever I see you
Never stopped to play
Cause there was no attraction
But in my heart, you start to grow on me
Kind of suddenly
So now, I've changed direction
Knowing it might seems strange
Love came over me
Feeling the luck has changed
Do you want me, like I want you?

In this cold world, where dreams are few
Boy, I want you
Is it too much to ask for?
I wish to take you places where I always go
If you just give in
So, it's now or never

And now if you feel the way I do
Would you fancy to take a ride beside me?

Happy Big Family!!

2008-02-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

I'm happy and I'm thanking GOD

Coz my family has become one

Daddy planned that we go out shopping

We went to Woodlands find curtain

Then we went to eat

I ate Nasi Goreng Pattaya...yumyum

We ordered butter prawn...

Whenever we go out to eat, we will order butter prawn

We, family love that..

Then we went to Causeway Point

At first I thought that after we ate our lunch we went straight home

But daddy said we go Causeway and see what we want to buy

Inside of me was like screaming in happiness haha...

Went to Metro.. BIG SALE!!!!

Went inside, look at handbags and shoes

See daddy's face was not bored

He even joined us with the laughter and jokes we make

Then I get to buy a shoes

It's very nice... It cost $39.90 after 10% discount

At first, I was like 50/50...

Coz my mom was like... wah, this shoe so nice but how bout my other shoes?
I was like thinking & thinking

So I didnt bought it...

We walked and walked around the shops

Then daddy asked why I didn't want to buy the shoes

And I was like telling how my mom was questioning me about the shoes

That made me having a second thought

But I was surprised to what daddy told me

He said, " Never mind just buy lah. If you already like it then just buy.If not you will regret. Anyway, I'm the one whose paying for it what. Not your mother."

Haha.. I was like happy.. He never said like this before

I can see that he really wants the 3 of us (my sis, me & bro) to be happy

Ok..this is the photo of the shoes I bought...

Upset

2008-02-10T02:03:00.000+08:00

Today (i mean yesterday)meet Baya, Farhana and Ainah
At 11 plus, Jurong East Library
Finish up our presentation slides

Upset today coz dropped my ezlink card in van
While on my way home after work
Don't know what to do
To get back my ezlink

Yesterday night,
Asked Rafidah to check in the van for my ezlink
Coz she was working 3rd shift
Unfortunately, she wasn't working tonight

Suddenly my head struck
Thinking of Nishanti coz she also take same transport as me
So asked her tonight if she's working (hoping that she's working)
And YAP!!
Thanked god and I asked her to find it for me

But waited and waited after 1230am
Coz that's the time usually the 3rd shift people started to get on the transport
But there were no sign of Nishanti's message or call
Was totally upset

Was doing my frontpage project
But my mind was like thinking..."Did she find it for me? Or not?"
That was the only question coming out from my mind

Then at about 2am
Nishanti called me and said that she found my ezlink!!
I was like damn happy arh...
She said that the uncle waited for me at the bus stop he usually stops to send me

Went down with sis accompanied me
Saw the van was already there
Happy and ran quickly

The uncle was like...
Playing with my pouch ar... twirling around the handle
And smiling away
Haha...
Oh my god!! Lucky the uncle was very kind
He really dont mind sending my pouch all the way to my place
Thank you uncle.. and especially Nishanti
Lucky she was working 3rd shift

I think the uncle already saw my pouch but he dont have my number to call
But anyway thanks and I'm relieved now
Haiz...but tomorrow I'm working
But I dont think I'm going coz having saw eyes now
K lah...toodles
Til the next post

Working Again

2008-02-08T13:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday working again
From 6pm to 12am
This is what happened yesterday during work:

1. Deployed at T3, A pier (yeay!! Was happy coz love to be deployed at T3)
2. Happy coz partner with Shasha... work so long but never get to partner with shasha. Also with Nishanti
3. Irritating busted.. a guy keep following me everywhere I go..(sorry not interested, OK!!)
4. Told colleague that 10 feb is my last day of work ( I knew it.. they were like "What?!!! Don't lah. Please continue working")
5. Saw a group of korea students... my eyes was caught by one of them wearing black sweater haha.. cute sey (Serene saw him too and we were like melting when he walked pass us haha..)
6. Foreigner guy ( mayb from Manchester, coz he's going there) asking for boarding gates. Then his hands was over my shoulder after I told him where his boarding gate was (eww.. dirty guy)
7. Attend to one cute, blur-kind-0f-look chinese guy wearing specs going to Perth.. Keep looking at his eyes. (melting haha...Serene saw him too.. Whatever happened to me, my darling care bear knows it)
8. Planned of overnight in Changi til 6am with Ain & Serene (my darling care bear). But cant coz the next day Im working and Im afraid that I cant wake up to go work

Working Days!!

2008-02-06T12:14:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps!!

Yesterday working, 3rd shift again haha
(see promise you guys that I take 3rd shift back)
Ok... when reached workplace
Alot of guys asking for my name (???)
And this one indian(handsum guy, still dun noe his name) guy...
Asked for my number
Also keep asking me to sit beside him and giving me chocolates...hmm...("thinking...something wrong there" ??)

Yesterday night was totally happening
I felt a little popular haha...
Just kidding

I didn't know that alot of people misses me so much
And keep asking me why they didn't see me for so long
Haha.. sorry was kind of busy for that one week

Haven't told some of them that Im not working after 10 feb
Haha... I think if I told them they will be like.. "What??!!!"
Like SOMEONE yesterday haha... He said I busted him saying that I take 3rd shift but he saw me in 2nd shift. Haha.. That day, he was going to start work and I was finishing already.
Sorry, man haha..
It was Saturday..

Ok lah.. that's all
See if today happening again
As usual working in 3rd shift til on friday
Wanna ask for off day on Sunday...
Coz monday schooling plus starts @ 9am
Sure can't wake up early if work til 12am...

And also too bad for my family members
Working tomorrow, so it seems that I can't join you guys overnight at Changi Beach
If I join you guys, confirm I tell you I won't want to go to work
The next day (fri) also working..
Scared tired then lazy to go work...

Later people in 3rd shift all said I busted them haha...
I know I know.. you guys miz me so so much
Understand
Ok people...Im coming to work today!!!!!!!
See ya peeps around... later at 5.30pm
Adios!!!

So Yesterday...

2008-02-03T20:46:00.000+08:00

Let me tell you about yesterday..
Was working from 12noon to 6pm
Supposely Ain working too
But unfortunately...
I've got to go work alone
And I don't even know anybody from the 2nd shift!!!!!!!
I was deployed to Terminal 3
My IC was Brandon
He's very friendly..
So I've made friends with him

I was then been stationed with 2 chinese girls
They are very friendly
One name Sinma and the other one..erm...I don't know
Haha..but who cares...
As long I've made friends
That's the important part
We chit chat and keep on laughing
It was very fun
But somehow it was damn bored...
Not alot of passengers
Attend to one foreign passenger (handsome english guy ahem..hehe)
Ask if he needs my help
After showing him the direction where he's suppose to go...
He then said to me "You're very pretty"..
Haha.. aww.. I was like speechless hehe..
Anyway... I still think that I will stick to 3rd shift more better
That's my best shift I love so far
Well...it wasnt so bad after all...
Luckily I saw my Care Bear, Serene deployed in T3
Same as me
Haha... it's like so so long didnt see each other
And when we saw each other, we were like missing each other so much

Plus a surprise gift!!!
Bro message when I was working
Saying that Daddy wanted to buy me handphone
But when reached home after work yesterday
Bro & sis were acting and told me that they didnt bought the hp
I was so sad
Even daddy joined in the act :(
Then when we stopped talking about hp
Sis took out the box and surprise me
They hid it in one of the drawer
Haha.. thankz ar guys
Anyway... thanx daddy for the hp.. Love it so much
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As for today.................
Went to my aunt's house to celebrate my lil' cousin's birthday
So fun looking at the small children playing games
Haiz... miss those years when I was young
All they just think of is eat & play

Yeay!! Tomorrow not working
Good, after school can rest
But Tuesday working back to my 3rd shift
Yeay!!!! Get to see all my 3rd shift members
Miss all those people
Of course someone told me not to take any other shift
Told me to take my 3rd shift back haha...
Ok... I will take 3rd shift back..
Even the uncle who send us home told me & ain to take 3rd shift back
Wah haha... it seems alot of people miss me when I'm not around
Hehe... Ok lah, that's all for my post. Til to the next post!!!
So adios..and ba bye!!!

2008-02-01T11:01:00.000+08:00

Today is another boring day of my life
Never mind...bored again just call my sayang hehe...
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But yesterday went out with Zalikha
Met at Limbang park @ 5.30pm
Chit chat & shared stories

Then accompany Seha to Sembawang
Disscussion about her job
But me and ikha
Window shopping at SunPlaza

Sit outside KFC
Enjoy the cold breeze air @ nite
And watching the stars
Laughing and enjoying each other stories

We left Sembawang
Around 8.30pm and headed home

"Ikha thanks for the cake. It's nice... haha. My mum love it too especially the tarts."

Aww.. It Is So Sweet!!!

2008-01-29T21:21:00.000+08:00

Today was so so happy..
Cos first saw someone who I totally wanna see for so long
Well ya.. miss him
And found him today haha...
Its a surprise for me!

And another was...
My darling, Nikki & Agatha gave me my birthday present
Aww.. my b'dae over already
Still get present haha..
That is so sweet hehe..

Well anyway..
Thanks Agatha for the present
I don't care if the present I get is small or what
The only thing that I care most
Are the thoughts that counts
Well that's what you always say right? haha..

But anyway love the earring so much
It's cute and nice
U know I love dangling earrings haha...

And as for my darling, Nikki
Thanks so so so sooooo much
It was a surprise for me
When I open the book

I was shocked to see alot of my photos in it
But I'm most surprise and touched was..
The photos of me and you
Also with the rest of the people we spent time together
That is so sweet

When I was looking at those photos
It really reminds me of those days
Where we always spent time together
And taking alot of photos
Seriously miss those days
Just wish to go back time haha..

Was totally touched
And my eyes was nearly filled with tears
It was the MOST lovable, memorable & sweetest present
That I ever received...

To Nikki, cum DARLING cum BESTBUDS:
Thank you so so much for the present, darling.
This is the first time I received such a memorable present from my BESTBUD...
Hope we will always keep in touch after we graduate and spend alot of time together again like we used to do when we were in NITEC.
Thanks for everything.
With you around, I fill whole in my life.
And because of you, my life is fill with happiness.
Also thanks for hearing to all my sadness, secrets & happiness and understands me all these years.
I'm also happy that you really share your sadness, happiness & secrets with me too.
I'm thankful to GOD for having a friend like you.
And I wanna tell the whole world that I am very proud to call you my BESTEST FRIEND.
I hope this Friendship will never end.
I will always remember you for the rest of my life...
So I just wanna tell you "I Love You!"
(for the last pic of you holding Pooh - are you trying to make me jealous?? Haha... )

Heartbreak Lullaby

2008-01-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

Ok this is a lyric... but totally meaningful for me.. Well some of you guys know why haha..
It's for someone whom you are totally into but u think that u are never meant to be with him
(This is how I feel and not the meaning of the song)
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Heartbreak Lullaby
Heartbreak lullaby...
In the still of the night,
I can almost feel you lying next to me,
Like it used to be, (well actually I was d one lying next to him)

And its hard to let go,
When there's always something there reminding me,
How things could be,
I've tried to get you off my mind,
I've tried to play my part,
But everytime I close my eyes,
You're still inside my heart,

Why can't I laugh?
Why must I cry?
Everytime we say good-bye,
Why does it rain,
Here in my heart,
Everyday that we're apart,

Why can't it be,
Just you and me,
What will it take to make you see,
These are the words,
To my Heartbreak Lullaby,

Like the stars in the sky,
You still keep on shining down you're light on me,
But out of reach,
And I know that in time,
You will come back to your senses,
See the signs,
And change your mind,

I try to look the other way,
And keep my heart on hold,
But everytime I'm close to you,
I lose my self-control,

Why can't I laugh?
Why must I cry?
Everytime we say good-bye,
Why does it rain,
Here in my heart,
Everyday that we're apart,
Why can't it be,
Just you and me,
What will it take to make you see,
These are the words,
To my Heartbreak Lullaby,

Why can't I laugh?
Why must i cry?
Give me just one good reason why..
Why does it rain
Here in my heart,
Everyday that we're apart,
Why can't it be,
Just you and me,
What will it take to make you see,
These are the words,
To my Heartbreak Lullaby,

Life is a Miracle

2008-01-27T20:00:00.000+08:00

Life is a miracle;
Don't let it slip away,
Open your heart to others,
Give of yourself each day.
See the beauty in everyone,
Regardless of where they've been,
Some have a difficult journey,
And really need a friend.

Share your gifts and talents,
Listen with your heart.
Do the things you dream about,
But don't have time to start.
Pick a bouquet of flowers,
show someone that you care.
Be gracious and forgiving,
Life is never fair.

Hold on to your courage,
You may need it down the road,
We all have a cross to bear,
It could be a heavy load.
If you practice all these things,
No matter where you roam,
You may find both sun and rain,
But you'll never feel alone.

Everyday See You

2008-01-26T20:21:00.000+08:00

Sometimes the breaks go my way
Sometimes there's no good news today
Sometimes it all hits the wall
Sometimes I think it's all my fault

But I'm not stressing out
You know, I could be downtown, lost in the crowd
Without even one tiny ray of sunlight
Breaking through the crowds

But I got the sun when I need it
I got the moon
I've got someone
I can talk to

Cuz I get to see you
I got the sun, got the moon
Raindrops like ice cubes on the ground
And a sound like people talking

There's a lot of things tryin to keep me down
But I better just keep on walking
Cuz I'm not staying here
And looking up at my forecast, it's clear

You wrap me up in blue skies
Whenever you are near
I've got the sun,
I've got the moon
I got my best friend(Best that I ever had)
I got a lifeline(To get me through when it gets bad)
Feels like an angel's following my heels

Oh Gosh!!

2008-01-25T10:04:00.000+08:00

Oh gosh!!
Today need to sleep early
Must wake up at 12am
Wash up and get ready for work

Transportation pick up at 3.50am
Start at 6am to 12nn
Never mind
Endure it... I can do it

Worth trying
Finish can go home and sleep
Anyway end work the next day(saturday)
So shouldn't be a problem

First time work at 6am
Should try some times...

Oh Gosh!!
But Monday I've to come to work at 12am - 6am
Write request for a change of shift
But no confirmation reply til today

Then later, they will blame us
Hey we got REASONS leh...
It's SCHOOL, OKAY!!!!!!!!!
Think what... we robots arh
Don't need to sleep..

If monday I've to work from 12am-6am
By the time I reach home
Will be around 7 plus..
And my class starts at 10am
I've to wake up at 9.15am
I've got only 2 hours plus to SLEEP!!!

Idiot lah you people!!!!

Oh ya.. before this 2 weeks schedule came out
Have already write request
Want to work only on thursday, 3rd shift...friday, 2nd shift...saturday...4th shift
Because I'M SCHOOLING
But what do I get??!!!!!!!!!

All the days that I'm schooling
I have to work at 6am-12nn
Stupid sia these people
Think what, we don't need to go school anymore is it?!!

These are my schedule I've to work:
26 Jan, Saturday - 6am to 12nn
28 Jan, Monday - 12am to 6am
30 Jan, Wednesday - 12am to 6am
2 Feb, Saturday - 6am to 12nn
4 Feb, Monday - 6am to 12nn
5 Feb, Tuesday - 6am to 12nn
6 Feb, Wednesday - 6am to 12nn
7 Feb, Thursday - 6am - 12nn
8 Feb, Friday - 6pm to 12am
10 Feb, Sunday - 12am - 6am

(highlighted in red... Damn i'm schooling ok!!! I will become zombie by the end of Feb..)

Plus... my CA is on coming February..
I don't care I will take 2 weeks leave
For me to study for my upcoming exam

Damn! Im Tired

2008-01-23T14:37:00.000+08:00

Yesterday working
Deployed at T3 transit
Was with Serene
Slack & make stupid jokes

All we talked about was..
Guys wahaha...
Like what else we want to talk about
If its not GUYS!!!
Haha..

But funny, we make stupid jokes
About some guys
Sorry boys haha..

But while standing near my booth
A malay guy
Working as maintenance
Was flirting with me ar...Erggg!!! Hate it

Keep waving at me
And purposely stand infront of me
And what else he will do...
Of course stared at me.. What The Hell ar

Lucky time ran very fast
In a blink of an eye
It was already 10pm
So happy cant wait to go home

Daddy & sis
Wait for me at bus stop
Oh sooo sweeeet hehe..

Reach home
Wash up
So damn hungry
Eat Double cheese burger
And go to bed

And guess what??!!!!
Today I wake up late
So so damn late
I'm never this late ar

Class starts at 9am and ends at 1 plus
I woke up at 8.45am
Reach school at 12nn
Haha... just come for S&W

Lucky Jamie very good
Just ask me to brisk walking
And do some stretching
Coz of all the days
Have been working standing for 6 damn hours

And at last...
Thank god I'm OFF today
Resume my work
On Saturday, 2nd shift
12noon to 6pm

Haiz... k lah.. toodles
Wanna sleep to damn tired
Adios!!!

Precious Person

2008-01-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

I think I'm In Love Wit You
Everytime you're near
I get kinda crazy in my head for you
I don't know what to do
I get kinda shaky when they mention you
I just lose my cool

My friends tell me
Something has come over me
And I think I know what it is
I think I'm in love

Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been doing silly things when it comes to you
In love, boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been telling all my friends what I feel for you

Just the other day, I saw you hangin out
You were with your crew
I was with mine too
You took me by surprise

When you turn and look me in my eyes
Boy you really blew my mind
I don't know what's gotten into me
But I kinda think I know what it is

Something strange has come over me
Got me going out of my mind
Never met a guy like you before
You make me feel special inside

Sleepy

2008-01-17T16:46:00.000+08:00

Yesterday deployed at T1
Then need to go to T3
There met, Serene, Shawn & Shi Rui
Had alot of fun laughing

Without Shawn around
We felt so bored
Coz he's the one
Who start all the jokes

Haha.. slacking away
Nothing much to do

Shawn bought me Filet-O Fish
Nice guy
Good to know him
And damn funny haha

In van, laughing all the way again
Jokes made by Haidhar & Hafiz
Sleepy but cant sleep
Coz very cold

Reach home around 2 plus
Coz yesterday not many people to be sent
Eat my Filet-O fish burger
Look at time... Oh gosh!! Going 3am

Quickly wash up
Go to bed tomorrow(I mean today) schooling
Lucky class start 10am
Come to class at 11.15am haha...

Happy today
My OFF Day!!
But not enough rest
Tomorrow got CA AOFA start @ 10.30am

But then after CA
Go work
=( DAMN!!!

Haiz... see lah
Sad cannot spend time with my friends
But happy to see them in school
Guys I miz u so much

Especially for that one person
I didn't see in school
Haha..
Ok toodles and have a great day